No weight loss = Major breakdown!!
Monday, December 12, 2011
I am sorry I have been MIA for the past month or so. I have just been so down on myself. The week of Thanksgiving I had a huge breakdown because I have been busting my a$$ since the beginning of August and my weight just did not want to come off regardless what I did.Ever"ryone keeps saying "oh you had a baby, so it takes longer". I understand that, but I am almost 7 months post partum, I should have lost SOMETHING. But nope, the first week I lost 6lbs and then within 3 1/2 months I only lost 2 more pounds.
I think what really frustrates me is that when I first started my journey about 2 1/2 years ago at 320lbs I was losing weight EVERY week, anywhere between 3-7lbs a week until I hit 230. Then I had some personal things come up, I gained 25lbs, then when I went to get back into it I got pregnant and did not make the best choices. So after I had the baby I was at 272! I thought that since I hadn't exercised in awhile that the weight would start melting away again! Heck I would have been happy with even 1lb lost a week, it is definitely better than nothing. My husband bought my a body media fit (like a body bugg) for my birthday, and I used that for a month and I still had NO progress. After all that, like I said, I had a breakdown. I tried so hard to stay strong, but there was only so much I could take of being let down week after week. Yes, eating right and exercising is good for me whether I lose weight or not, but the purpose of it for me was to lose weight.
First I thought I wasn't eating enough calories, I was originally eating 1500 calories, then I jumped it up to 2000 calories and then I would calorie cycle. My deficit would be at LEAST 1000 every day.
SOO I decided to just give it a rest for awhile, I stopped exercising and well my eating has not been what I would like it to be. I ate like crap for about 3 weeks now, but now I am starting to keep my portions under control. Exercising just is not going to happen until after Christmas. I wanted to get through the Holidays first, and then I am going to start back at it and just keep pushing regardless.
I have been doing hours of research and found that doing a detox may be a big help with cleaning out all the extra crap that could be hanging around in my body after the baby. So I will be doing a 14 day detox after the New year and then just hope for the best after that!
Thanks for reading, I really needed to vent and just get all of this OUT!!