Lost my spark, time to get it back.
Monday, January 09, 2012
9 months progress regained in 3 months.
I guess a variety of things happened, I was starting to feel pretty happy with myself at the end of the summer, and I started to get lax, and it spiraled out of control. Added to that just general stress, I regained over 30lbs.
I noticed my body getting more flabby, my back aching, not looking good in pictures, clothes not fitting, comments about being fat again and making me more and more miserable and just eating more.
Leading to more regain, and being more unhappy with myself.
I could see what was happening, and it was my fault I didn`t give myself a mental kick up the ass to get back to sparking.
Hell I actively AVOIDED spark because it reminded me of my lazyness and lack of care.
Well, before I regain EVERYTHING I`m back. I`ve entered my current weight of 100kilos and looked at that number. That`s the number I`m starting from.
Eating right is a not an easy or short battle, but I done it before I sure as hell will do it again. I can`t confidently say I won`t yoyo back up after a weight loss, but maybe one day the lesson will stick.
So I`m back and accountable for my actions.
Happy New Year all!