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This time is different, I have God on my side. :)

Wednesday, February 01, 2012

I have been a member here since April of 2010. I keep falling off the wagon, time and time again. But this time it's different!!

First and foremost, I have God on my side now. :) Since the beginning of this year I have been thinking a lot about God. Not that I hadn't before, but it's different this time. This past week or so I feel like I have really grown a lot closer to Him.

I don't know what to make of what has been happening the past few days. First of all, all that don't know, I am not a religious person. Yes, I believe in God. But no, I do not go to church. I do not read my bible everyday. Nor do I read it once a week or once a month. Maybe once a year?? I know that's not good. But, that's just how it is.

I think God is trying to speak to me. Like I said, I am not a religious person at all. But little things have been happening around me, and I think they are signs. Two Sundays ago, 2 of my nieces (14 and 15 year olds) invited me to church. They gave a testimony, and it touched me. I shed a few tears, they were happy ones. This was the beginning of my lifetime changes. A few days ago, I read a post on facebook where someone needed some prayers. I get those a lot, but this one touched me. Then, I found a shared link someone had posted on facebook talking about Jesus and Religion. I clicked on it and listened with an open mind. Then I watched a movie called Courageous. A MUST SEE MOVIE!! Anyway, and it really hit me hard. Then, just today I was reading a post from Tyler Perry.

I don't know what all these things are trying to tell me, but it's trying to tell me something. Everything that I have mentioned have really touched me in a way, that I have never felt. Something is going on, and I don't yet know what to make of it. If anyone has any ideas what these things may be telling me, please let me know. Maybe I will figure it out on my own or maybe someone can give me some insight!!

A friend of mine invited me to church. I have not yet answered her. I sort of scared me in a way. I am not saved, nor am I baptized. I feel like I need to, but, I don't want to just go to church this one time and "use" the preacher just to save me and baptize me. I know we are not promised tomorrow and yet, I keep putting it off. I guess I need to find it within myself to open up and move forward.

About my weight journey?? well, I have been watching my calorie intake, joined a gym, and actually working out. It's been 3 weeks, (I don't really count the first week, because I sort of fell off that darn wagon lol). So, in 2 weeks, I've been doing really good. I have lost 4.4 pounds! I know it's not alot, but I feel so much stronger and just feel so much different this time. I'm thinking it's because God is speaking to me, and this time with Him by my side, I can do this. I WILL do this.

Thank you all for listening and, as I mentioned earlier, any insight will be much appreciated.

May you all have a wonderful and blessful day!

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    A friend of mine recently shared a scripture verse with me that I have returned to frequently.... Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. I can't tell you how many times He has done exactly that for me. Not that I am perfect, I am definitely not. But I do believe that God loves me and desires a relationship with me. When I choose to seek Him, He reveals Himself to me in a way that is personal to me. I believe that He loves you and will do the same for you. When you seek Him, you will find Him in a way that is personal to you. I will be thinking of you as you continue on this journey.

    Congratulations on your weight loss thus far. emoticon
    2791 days ago
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    Jayme - how awesome for you! Thank you for sharing your story. It touched me today.

    Hugs to you!!!
    2791 days ago
    Everyone has their own path with God. Yours is starting; take it slow if you feel you need to. It comes in it's own time.
    3158 days ago
    Yes you can and this is the time...
    3158 days ago
    God is there all around you & maybe He is speaking to you. He does that to me a lot.
    3158 days ago
    How awesome! I know the feeling you are describing. I am basically housebound, do not attend church but I feel I am very spiritual. Some days it seems like every thing I come across is giving me a message. I attribute these messages to be from God & I know I am on the right path. So are you it sounds! And congrats on the 4 lb weight loss. That is a big thing!!!
    3159 days ago
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