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Thursday, February 09, 2012

Here I am again feeling crappy about my self and just not feeling so good either.. So this morning as I was driving my bus, I was thinking I need to get back into this and stick with it . I can remember how much better I felt, physically and emotionally, when I was working out and eating better.. Now I just look like crap and feel like crap. I've gained so much back. I can't fit into any of my good jeans, I had to buy bigger sizes and that really stinks.... Man I was doing so well I can remember not wanting to eat anything that had alot of salt..Now all i want is to eat salty stuff and I know how bad it is for me. Not to mention I'm on blood pressure meds..

Well I guess this is a start or should I say a restart...... I'm putting my stuff out there and any feed back would be great.. having some friends would be great. I think i need all the support I can get right now to help me stick with this....Thanks for reading Rhonda

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    Ronnie, I am so glad to see you're back!
    Welcome home!!

    Believe me when I say that I can DEFINITELY relate with you.

    I'm glad that you are reaching out, because that's what helps us to get our motivation & momentum back. As difficult as it can be, as long as we keep reaching out, & pushing passed the frustrations, we will get to the point where we start feeling pretty darned good once again.

    I can agree with Succubus that it's better to be in pants that are too big rather than restrictive by being too small. I am at in between sizes tight now which is wicked uncomfortable, so I too am abut to go out & buy some pants that will be a bit too large for me. Just think though, next pair you buy will be a smaller size.
    3416 days ago
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    Hi! What a brave thing to admit that you need some support and help! That's where I always fall down :) It's always hard to start back on the right path, especially when you feel like you've already been down part of it before. I know I feel that way about the first 40 pounds I have to lose. "I've lost them before, do I really have to do all the hard work to lose them again? Isn't there a way to just not let those pounds count?" But really, it's not about losing them again, it's about refinding my healthy lifestyle. I love the advice Succubus had to give, and I would only add one thing - be gentle, go back to phase one, and remember that you are loved exactly the way you are.
    3419 days ago
    I am not one to tap dance around if I think I can say something that will help you, so just because I am blunt, it doesn't mean I haven't been there, because I have. I have lost 50 pounds since September doing what I am about to tell you and plan to keep doing it to lose at least another 30-40.

    Looking at some of the (few) entries for your nutrition tracker, it looks like you are low on protein and healthy fats and pretty high on carbs. If that is normal it could go a LOOOOONG way to explaining the way you are feeling.

    At the bottom of your nutrition tracker there is a button that says "See todays full report". Click on it and pay attention to the very bottom where it shows your protein, fat and carb ratios. Getting these ratios right goes a long way to helping you feel full and fueling your body with what it needs to produce the results you want.
    Since I AM WORKING OUT regularly, my trainer recommends 30% protein, 30% HEALTHY FATS and only 40% carbs. I have focused on starting out each day with mostly protein and my cravings for carbs have disappeared.
    Focus more on eating whole foods and avoiding processed foods. Don't say you can't because it isn't true. It just takes some adjustments. Processed food has a lot of crap in it that is not healthy for you or your child and will interfere with your success.

    #2-Start working out regularly. This means 3-6 times a week. If you can afford a few sessions with a personal trainer, it will really help get you started and motivate you. It will help you get past the anxiety of going to a gym and worrying about what everyone else thinks.
    That is how I felt 5 months ago and now I have people coming up to me and telling my how impressed they are with my progress. I am not afraid to go lift weights right next to the guys, because I have just as much right to a healthy body as they do, and you know what-they have all been polite and courteous.
    I hate to sweat, and I am going through "the change" so I get hot easily, but I turn up the music on my MP3 player and keep at it because it works!!!

    #3-Set smaller, attainable goals. Do not set out to lose 60 pounds, but rather to lose 20, than another 20 and another. At each goal reward yourself with something non-food. It has been much easier to stay motivated when my next goal was within reach, versus feeling like I had so far to go that I would never get there. Baby steps WILL get you there.

    This isn't something that is going to fix itself, you HAVE TO WANT IT and have to MAKE IT HAPPEN. Find something that can be your mantra and say it to yourself all the time. Read the many articles on Spark People about motivation. Log in EVERYDAY and try to hit 100 Spark Points-you will learn a lot and what you learn can help you achieve your goals if you make the effort.

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    3419 days ago
    Hi Rhonda -

    Boy! Do I know how you feel! I could have written most of your blog ('cept, I don't have a bus, dang it!). I have been on the self-loathing train for months, but didn't realize it until I read your post. Thank you for sharing your struggles. I know it wasn't easy, but you have given me the gift of a nudge in the right direction. I thank you and I KNOW that you will get back to loving yourself soon. You've taken the hardest step. Let's do this together!!!!
    3419 days ago

    We are all in this together. Remember tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it!

    I was feeling down myself today. I looked at how I was thinking and realized I am trying to make excuses to quit AGAIN. This is my first time on SP but I think it is an incredible program. It keeps you thinking of what you need to do.

    Just remember to get back on track. The only time I lost weight was when I got back on track after a bad meal. I didn't let myself do several bad meals. I didn't throw in the towel until after I lost. I wish I had this program at that time. We can't throw in the towel if we want to be healthy.

    I too feel I look horrible. I don't do anything physical because it is embarrassing to be seen in shorts or a suit or whatever. It is funny how when you are thin and don't do something well it is cute. But,when you are overweight and don't do something well you get embarrassed.

    We CAN do this. I started last month and I have 100 to lose if not more. I set my goal this year for 50. I plan on doing it. I have had that 50 around for 12 years now. If I get there I can move toward the rest.

    I am here if you want to talk. I am overseas working right now and can't even weigh which is frustrating. I decided to do a Weight Loss Bucket List that has things like zip my coat again or see my feet in the shower....it is the only way I can see progress for now.

    Hang in there. You are back on SP which means you really want to lose the weight. It is a good program. Get back on track today, not after another meal.

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    3419 days ago
    It's better to be comfortable in bigger jeans, than to be restricted in too-tight jeans.

    Take your big jeans out for a walk today - take advantage of that freedom of movement and not having to worry that your thighs look like sausages in casing, or that your pants will split when you tie your shoes.

    Walk your jeans every day and soon you'll be trading them back for the old ones.
    3419 days ago
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