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Reboot - The Story

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Three weeks ago, I announced on my status that I was 'rebooting". So, what did that mean? I wish I could say it meant I've been eating better, exercising every day, and in general getting healthier.
What it actually meant was I made a spur of the moment, implusive decision to start taking classes toward a business degree. And being the all or nothing person I am, I did not test the waters by taking just one introductory course. No, I chose to take two junior-level courses. You would think a seven day a week job and my church committments would be enough. A master's degree should be enough. But it's not.
Why not? The simple answer is - I'm unhappy. I'm burned out at my job. I don't have much of a social life. I'm not sticking to my eating or exercise goals. I feel like I'm flunking life.
As I see it, I had two choices. I could either continue to accept failure, or I could do something to straighten out my head. For the past several months I was accepting failure, even as I was on SparkPeople encouraging others to do what I couldn't at the time.
Three weeks ago, the lightbulb went on. Taking classes doesn't just move me toward a degree, it reminds me of who I used to be. A person confident in her intelligence, a person who thrives on a challenge, a person capable of making her life what she wants it to be. I lost that person somewhere along the way.
In the short term, this new committment may set me back on my health goals. But I'm beginning to remember how to want (and DO) it all.
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    I am so proud of you to step up and go for the change. We have to be happy with ourselves to succeed and it sounds like you are on the right path. Being happy is what it takes to meeting all goals. My son has also went on line and is now taking college courses to get his teacher degree. So proud of him at the age of 40, to know that he can conquer this and move on to better things.

    You too will move on to better things and life will be great for you. Small steps ata time is the goal and you will reach them. emoticon emoticon
    2965 days ago
    Congratulations! What a wonderful spirit and attitude you have! Go for it!!
    3252 days ago
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    I feel your pain in many ways as I work to redefine my life and calling. In fact, I weigh a bit more than when I first joined this online community. Perhaps change has to start in our minds--and we can't change every broken aspect of our lives at once. It sounds like you are on track to make some positive strides.

    Maybe the key is not allowing ourselves to become more broken in the other weak areas...

    Peace, Todd
    3270 days ago
    Way to go, Carren!

    I too am taking a few classes....I am entering the job market in a couple of months and I need to update my skills. I'm just taking some extension classes....Excel 2010, which is quite different from the 2003 we use at my employer, so I'm starting from scratch, Excel 1,2, and 3, and also Outlook 2010. In addition I'm doing an Internet course for A/P Certification. I figure every little detail I have on my resume will give me a little boost. I've been at this job for almost 12 years now, and self-employed for 13 years before that, so jumping into the pool at this stage of my life is a bit scary. (Hmmm. Maybe I'll have to put that in a blog of my own!)
    3272 days ago

    ange a few of the minor details and I could have written that blog. I am so impressed with your insight! You go Girl! You can do this! Hey, if you need any support, just let me know. I can even cook a healthy meal or two for you to keep you heading in the right direction when life gets happy busy. I can keep you company when you food shop to make sure junk doesn't hit your cart.

    I am mucho impressed. You are creating the You that you want to find. Congrats!!!!

    Whether it be a smiling face, a happy email, or a food shopping buddy, what ever you need, I'm here.

    3273 days ago
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