Reboot - The Story

Three weeks ago, I announced on my status that I was 'rebooting". So, what did that mean? I wish I could say it meant I've been eating better, exercising every day, and in general getting healthier.
What it actually meant was I made a spur of the moment, implusive decision to start taking classes toward a business degree. And being the all or nothing person I am, I did not test the waters by taking just one introductory course. No, I chose to take two junior-level courses. You would think a seven day a week job and my church committments would be enough. A master's degree should be enough. But it's not.
Why not? The simple answer is - I'm unhappy. I'm burned out at my job. I don't have much of a social life. I'm not sticking to my eating or exercise goals. I feel like I'm flunking life.
As I see it, I had two choices. I could either continue to accept failure, or I could do something to straighten out my head. For the past several months I was accepting failure, even as I was on SparkPeople encouraging others to do what I couldn't at the time.
Three weeks ago, the lightbulb went on. Taking classes doesn't just move me toward a degree, it reminds me of who I used to be. A person confident in her intelligence, a person who thrives on a challenge, a person capable of making her life what she wants it to be. I lost that person somewhere along the way.
In the short term, this new committment may set me back on my health goals. But I'm beginning to remember how to want (and DO) it all.