Calendar Check... Decision Time

Today is the day that marks 1/2 of February gone....that is the pessimist in me. The time is gone and I can't go back and do all I said I would do this month because I have wasted the first 1/2 of the month.

I said 2012 would be different...and thus my dilemma....
do I say what I mean and mean what I say?

I am standing where I have stood so many times before. My weight this morning...168.8...gaining for the month. Exactly what I did last year...lose a few...gain a few...stand still.

But the optimist in me- the girl who is hard to drag out but really wants to be heard...says there is still time. I can still get the wagon upright, climb back in and try really hard to get things back on track...or at least closer to the track rather than further away.

It is Feb. 15. New Years is far enough behind us that the "tingle" of the New Year isn't quite as "tingly"....but what we do NOW...TODAY...is what will make the difference of making and achieving those goals and dreams we planned on back on January 1, or it could be the beginning of the drifting...getting away from those goals, losing focus, becoming lost.

Do I do what I did last year, waste time and end up in the same place...or do I finally take the plunge and make this the year I planned for it to be?

I am choosing
EFFORT
MINDFULNESS
POWER
and
DESIRE!

I am more aware this year that time runs out...and not doing the work on a daily/weekly/ monthly basis will never get me where I need to be. I know that I can want something really badly...but if I do not do the work, I can't get there. I learned this the hard way last year!
I NEED TO ACHIEVE MY GOALS because I love my life so much and want to live it as long as I can- healthy and happy! I want to get rid of this cloud in my life!

Today is not a new start. ALthough I stumbled and faltered, I didn't give up and quit the journey and have a need to start again. Today is just another day of walking down the same path I started...just at a brisker, much more confident and determined pace...with a roadmap in my hand and a destination burned on my brain!!