Not Looking Forward to Wedding
Tuesday, March 06, 2012
Warning: This may be a bit of a downer.
Title may be a bit misleading. I'm looking forward to marrying, but I am not excited about the "wedding".
I know lots of friends who have dreamed of 'big wedding' and their wedding day since they were little girls. Not me.
I hate the spotlight and being the center of attention, and a wedding is exactly that.
I would have been happy to have just gone to a judge and had a nice honeymoon. I didn't need all this hoopla. If we didn't have people who already invested in traveling, I wish we could just cancel and do that.
The strange thing is, I think my fiance is the one that cares more about it. He says a wedding is a celebration and sharing with friends and family.
I wish I could see it that way. But since we have to do a destination wedding since we are scattered all over, the attending pool is very small. So I'm like, what's the point of going through all the time and expense? And now I have the extra burden of trying to figure out how to make sure the few people who are coming have a good time. Party organization and entertainment isn't something I'm very good at.
To be honest, I just want it over with.