I have a confession...
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
I have a problem...a serious problem...with food.
I don't even have the guts to tell this to my husband.
I'm hoping I will get help here instead of being judged.
My husband has been gone since Sunday...Since then I have eaten an entire 9x13 pan of brownies, 2 pints of ice cream, an entire box of cookies, an entire box of little debbie brownies, a huge bag of snack mix, a small box of oreos, jack in the box for dinner, sonic for lunch, and ordered wings and cheese sticks from pizza hut to be delivered...That doesn't include the amount of soda I have consumed. Today is Wednesday...This started on Monday...That means I have eaten all of that in 3 days....3 DAYS!!! I feel horrible, sick to my stomach...Sick both physically and mentally.
I have a serious problem with binge eating and I need help.
I don't know why I did it! Most of it didn't even taste good.
My husband doesn't like fast food, sweets, or soda. He's a healthy eater and has tried to get me to be the same way. But the second he's gone (on a business trip for a week) I'm eating anything and everything I can get my hands on! Just because I know I don't have to be accountable to him.
He doesn't know that I'm a binge eater. That I've been this way since highschool. That I have spent entirely too much money on "food". If you can even call it that.
I am embarrassed and ashamed.
But I don't know how to stop!
I also have an almost 9 month old daughter and I do NOT want to be this kind of example for her! My mom is one of the reasons I am this way, and I do not want me daughter to learn this from me. :(
I plan on sitting down with my husband when he gets back and finally tell him the truth. He deserves to know and I want him to know so maybe he can help me.
I am writing this here just because I need to see it in plain site...See how much I have truly eaten...I seriously need some help.
Does anyone have any good advice or anything positive that will help me?
Thank you in Advance....