Thank You SparkPeeps :)
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Thanks to all of you for your support and advice on my confession! I sat down with my husband last night and finally told him everything. I was scared and sick to my stomach. I also cried. He was very understanding, but also could not fully understand why I would do this to myself. He also couldn't believe I was doing it under his nose and he never noticed! I told him I've been hiding food, candy, and soda all around us and he never knew. He then began to realize how bad it really was. He wants to help me and he has offered to be my accountability partner. I told him that it would be hard, because sometimes I will probably get mad at him, but I wanted him to know that this is what I needed. I told him a bunch of my triggers and he said he would text me things throughout the day to make sure I was still on track. It was a good talk and I feel beter knowing I have him on my side now. In my head I still think I can't do it, but I also think that I can because he's helping me.
This morning we woke up and one of the first things he said to me was "You will not binge today". I said Thank you for being strong for me. I had my first test after church when I went to Target for some groceries. I texted him telling him I was going and that I would not buy any junk food or soda. He texted back and said Be Strong. He is so wonderful. I seriously had to run past the Easter candy and keep my eyes straight at the checkout, but I did it! Then my second test...Driving by Sonic...I just drove right by and did not pull in! I know it hasn't even been 24 hours yet, but I really feel like I can get over this with my amazing husbands help. I bought several different healthy snacks (like raisins) in hopes that I will grab just ONE of those when I feel a "craving" coming on.
So Thank you everyone for letting me air out my dirty laundry and being so helpful! I can't wait to start changing my life for the better! This is not a diet! It's a Lifestyle Overhaul! lol :)