Physical therapy / running
Monday, March 19, 2012
I have been really bummed about not being able to run. And I have a love/hate relationship with running. It has never/will never come naturally to me. I was initially slightly relieved to have an excuse to have a break from running. That wore off in a real hurry though. I've relied heavily on runnin for my weight loss and maintenance and rather than immediately sucking it up and picking new activities to stay fit and healthy... I just felt depressed and lost without it and let myself fail. It's my own fault. Poor me, I have an injury and I can't/shouldn't run wah wah... move on and do something else. I get so intimidated and thrown off by routine changes. I don't know why, or what to do about it or how to conquer that. I'm frustrated with myself because I'm still honestly not very motivated. I've been in a state of hopelessness lately. and I know on a lot of levels I'm NOT hopeless. hardly. but I feel it, and it's hard to shake off this funk that I am in.
I had my first physical therapy session this morning. It was good, and informative. She pinpointed the cause of my muscular imbalances to be actually related to my hyper-flexible back and my tight hips. This was causing issues with my IT band keeping my knee in place and it's not tracking right. It's kinda nice to know all that on some level, not that any of it is good ... I mean I've always been a big girl not just in terms of overweight but tall and muscular. I'm sure many big folks out there with injuries, especially something like the knee can relate to the thought "I'm so fat and I'm running and this is all my fault for running and being so fat, my knees can't handle my weight" I almost wanted to shy away from help/therapy because of hearing someone really say that to me. Tell me I'm just not a person who should run. So, not that I want an injury it's just nice to know there's a real correctable reason behind it and that they didn't just look at me and think "oh of course her knee is hurting from running, just look at her" or something like that. I feel hopeful now that I'm in good hands.
I've been doing a lot of yoga. I challenged myself to do 30 yoga classes in 40 days. That 40 day period ends at the end of this month. My parents were out here visiting me the past ten days so that threw me off a bit. I will need to play some catchup but I'll at least be close, and really happy anyway. I've made a lot of awesome balance and strength strides from doing all this yoga. I'm ready for more now. I think I can take on doing plenty of yoga, resistance training and I'm going to start by adding swimming and walking backwards and sideways on the treadmill to my routine. take it from there...