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Monday, March 19, 2012

My goal for 2012 was to get down to 180 from 213. It is now mid-March, and I am at 206.

The frustrating thing is that I have actually been doing what I'm supposed to do. I went over to Weight Watchers mid-January since I have always had success with their program (when I follow it).

And I followed it.

And nothing happened.

In fact, I keep staying within four pounds: 206-210. It fluctuates according to my cycle. It has been really depressing, to be honest. I'm working so hard, eating right and exercising like mad. I quit paying money for WW since I kept going in circles. Came back to SP because I love it. I went to WW mostly because it has the structure I need, but that wasn't working anymore so I came back to where I enjoy even if I have to work harder to count calories and stay within a good range.

For the past four days, I have stayed under 1500 calories. At first I dropped three pounds. Today I gained one since yesterday. I don't get it, I really don't.

Friday, I went to talk to my doctor about a possible thyroid issue. I can't think of anything else as to why I'd be so stuck like this, despite doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Thyroid problems do run in my family, but the problem is that each doctor has a different range that they consider appropriate for treatment. So if I'm "on the low side," they won't treat me if it's not under a specific number, even though a different doctor might immediately treat it. Frustrating. I will find out in about a week what the numbers are.

My husband and I are having a vow renewal and wedding reception in less than a month. I'm worried I won't fit into the dress I bought last year for our originally planned wedding that we postponed until after our elopement. I fit into it perfectly when I got down to 194 last year. At 12 pounds heavier, I still fit into it but it's snug and may require some spanx or something. It's so depressing... especially since I shelled out thousands of dollars for a photographer. I know I can't lose 12 pounds in 3.5 weeks, and it wouldn't be healthy if I did anyway.

It's heartbreaking when I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing, but weigh as much as I did when I ate cake and ice cream every day. I have days where I think, "Why even try?" but I keep going because that dress is hanging over my head. So what happens after I don't have the dress to look at? Will I give up when I don't see success? It's not like a plateau, it's like my body has just quit working. I'm sluggish, easily fatigued, often cold, my skin is dry, I'm a little depressed... all very significant symptoms of thyroid but that won't mean anything to a doctor who doesn't agree with the level standards. And even if they treat it, it's no guarantee that my metabolism will kick into gear again.

Ugh.

Has anyone else experienced this, and suspected or confirmed it was related to thyroid dysfunction?
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