Friday, March 23, 2012
Yes that's right, shugohydrates. The perfect name for my arch nemesis, Carbohydrates (which, as we all hopefully know by now, turn into sugar as they are digested).
Tonight I finally made a major connection in my journey and here it is; even though I don't especially like sugar (candy, cookies, ice cream) I am, in fact, a sugar addict. To make it clear, I LOVE CARBS; always have, always will. Earlier in the day I went to my parents house to enjoy a pizza dinner with them.
Now... I know that pizza is one of my weaknesses so I loaded up on two servings of salad before I took my first bite of pizza; but alas, I was helpless to the draw of this blessed shugohydrate rich meal. I had one piece and felt ok about it, then... I had another half a piece (what could half a piece hurt, right?) and then I was for sure that I was DONE. So, we sat at the dinner table and chit-chatted for about half an hour and then it hit me, my brain had become ravenous and wild. "Must have pizza, must have PIZZA!" I rationed with myself that it was acceptable to have just one more piece but I was already in a craze. I had I believe one or two more pieces before I was satisfied.
As I sat there on the couch thinking about what I'd done I realized just how much I am addicted to shugohydrates. They are my kryptonite, my Achilles heel, my lapse of reason...
I guess the plus in this story is that I did not abuse myself for my weaknesses, and for this I am very proud. I'm actually accepting my weaknesses and turning them into learning experiences. For example, I now know that pizza is a rather large trigger for my binge eating and should be avoided when possible. I'll leave you with this... "Tis better to enjoy protein and feel great than to momentarily enjoy Shugohydrates and feel lousy in an hour." lol
****WE CAN DO IT SPARKFRIENDS****