Back again x2
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Well so much has happened. I got married
on 12.10.11. We are having finance issues but getting through it together which I'm glad. This haven't been easy at all for about 6months I guess that's one of many reasons I stopped coming on here...not a good excuse though. I have a part time job now which is nice cause it keeps me active since I'm moving and on my feet for 8'hrs however it's hard on my back and feet to where I want to come home a cry after my shift. I have nerve damage in my lower back and I know the weight don't help it but it's not the cause of it either. Weight don't help my feet either. I did meet a co worker that is a big lady that is trying to lose weight as well and she said she lost 40lbs in the last year so I guess hearing that made me want to get back on that wagon and try to better myself. Also I seen a pic that was taken in 2010 of me and I was so sad at how I looked.. I do think I have lost some weight since then, not much but some and I dont want to get back to be any larger then I am now.
It's hard to talk to my husband about how I feel because he is not overweight really and I am so he has no clue how I feel and he thinks I'm just putting myself down and he hates for me to do that however fat is fat and that's me! He is either A) being nice and don't want to hurt my feelings or B) just has blinders on and can't see me for what I really am.
On to how I'm going to get this weight off... I have no clue. I have done well with low carb eating and I honestly don't know how much I lost because I haven't been on a scale in years yes that's right..years! But I did notice clothes fitting better when I low carb'd it and it's not a bad way of eating. I dont have a weakness for sweets in fact if you told me I could never eat me again I would say ok no problem however sodas are another thing... I drink waaaaay to many and that's my weakness! Also I eat depending on my emotion and I know I over eat. Now I don't eat a lot of meals though... I eat like once maybe twice a day and that's it but I know I over do it with portions and my food choices since being with my husband are bad. He tends to eat a lot of pasta. Also a lot of other very unhealthy things but he dont really put on weight like I do so I can't eat like that. Also we eat out nearly every meal we have...there are reasons for that being we don't have a kitchen lol long story about that but yeah cooking right now isn't a option.
Anyways I'm going to close for now. If anyone has advice or tips for me I would be greatful! Thanks.