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Sunday, May 06, 2012

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Friday morning, my hubbys aunt died. just really struggling right now. on top of all my normal health issues. PTSD, this familial death. just am having a really hard time holding my head up right now. friend needs babysitter this summer and wants me to do it.
her sons daycare provider has pnuemonia this week and he has no provider this week. she is completely unraveled by it at church today. sigh.
funeral for hubbys aunt will be on mothers day. really? why? I dont understand it. dont ask me. I really dont get it. cant explain it.

have one of my friends daughters here with me now. we just baked a cake and are waiting for it to cool then she gets to frost it. another child is in meltdown mode at home. having to share time with my husband she doesnt want to do that and came unglued over it. started throwing things at her younger brother and screaming at everyone. the mom is so exhausted she is having a hard time handling them all calmly
so I have one with me, hubby has one with him and the other three are home with their mom.
if you believe in prayer - I could use your prayer for/with this situation. thanks.
I know my emotions are just raw right now due to death in family, am having dizzy/ vertigo spells again. Scares me. really dont want to drive if I have them again.
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  • YIWEN39
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    3125 days ago
  • JODIEC79
    My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    This too shall pass.
    I am sure things are raw and overwhelming right now for you. Just don't forget to take care of yourself and keep coming back to SP.
    As for vertigo, have you had it checked out? I had it pretty bad and with one visit to the ENT and a few quick movements it's gone.
    I know things will turn around...lots of hugs.
    3126 days ago
  • SNOWFLAKELILYM9
    Praying for you Julie, God is your refuge and strength a very present help in time of trouble. One of my Aunts died 2 weeks ago and the entire week afterwards was very tough for me, living 4000 miles away from the family and not being able to grieve with them is hard. So I understand at least your grief. Praying for strength and wisdom for you.

    Hugs
    3130 days ago
  • LITTLEGUYSMOM1
    I'm adding my prayers. emoticon
    3130 days ago
  • SWEETLIPS
    Father, we stretch our hands out to You right now, no other source we know. If you withdraw Your hand from us, where will we go. I know that we must accept what You allow, and in the name of Jesus I ask that You give this family peace that exceeds all understanding. Give them a special piece of You right now, that only You care share, give them Lord, a praise and song, a heart full of Joy and we will all be so careful to give You all the honor and praise in Your Son Jesus' name - AMEN!!
    3130 days ago
  • WRITINGBLUEHAWK
    You definitely are going through an intensely stressful time. Sometimes it seems as though the pain, stress, depression and negativity are going to be around forever. For times like these, find a mantra and repeat it to yourself. It can be a bible scripture or a short phrase--anything which will help calm you and take the edge off of everything.

    Keep logging into SP and keep your online friends posted, so you can continue to get the support you need.

    While everything around you seems out of control, one thing that you CAN control is your SP program. Keep doing the things you are doing to avoid emotional eating, if that's been an issue for you.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers--take care. The rough times WILL pass, I can assure you from experience.
    3130 days ago
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