Tuesday, May 15, 2012
A very funny/ annoying thing happened last night: on the very day I started my diet again after so many months (and he didn’t know, didn’t tell him cause it embarrasses me), my husband, out of the blue, suggested I should lose some weight!!
My first thought was HOW DARE YOU!!! Second thought was darn this means that my guess that I gained some weight is correct!! Third thought STILL HOW DARE YOU?!?!?
I was so mad I grabbed the cat, turned around and slept. This morning he asked if I wanted to talk and when I said no he went on with his usual business and in the car was even singing songs! I didn’t say anything and just kept looking at him with mean eyes every time he turned. I still feel horrible. I decided that before doing or saying anything I’d like to hear some thought from you ladies, if you feel like.
Has it ever happened to you that your guy pointed out that you are not exactly slim? How did you feel? How did you react? What was the result?
It is true though, that I may have gained some weight since taking up this boring, soulless job where I sit in front of the pc for 9 hours and in the car for 3 hours more! But I can’t be sure cause I do not own a scale at the present moment. When I get home I don’t need to (or would be in a condition to) do any household chores as we have 2 maids who take care of the cleaning and the cooking. Usually we share a beer and watch some tv before bed. So as you see, zero movement! (But it is not a permanent situation, just 6 or 7 more months, for visa problem).
And also, the food the maid cooks is quite oily and we have bread (rotis) with it almost every night... Not to mention that most time we wake up late so breakfast becomes a pack of cookies and snack a bag of chips… just last week I threw away a whole papaya cause it went bad in the fridge.
He didn’t by any means say it in a rude way, but then again he shouldn’t have said it at all!! He even suggested he will start exercising with me to build some muscles (he is already skinny) and made some stupid joke about becoming the prettiest couple in our town. I was totally not amused. And I do not want this to be repeated. Ever again. Please do not tell me this is just the beginning…
Now, I don’t think he is concerned about health issues cause he himself smokes and has never mentioned anything about being healthy ever before. And I’m not really obese, just quite overweight. So I must assume it is all for aesthetic reasons? Or that he’s not attracted to me anymore cause I’m gaining some weight? He has never made me feel undesired before, nor did he say it bothers him, just that we should “improve”. I was all happily resuming my healthy diet just for myself and now it bothers me that if I succeed it will be because of him annoying me and not just for myself. If at all I can succeed like this.
Sorry for the rant, just kind of upset. I hate to hear it. Makes me feel psycho and obsessed like the old bulimic. If I binge now it will probably end badly…
EDIT: he just sent me an email saying this: "baby we both look sick... i look sickly thin & u the other way round... lets put some effort & look like a handsome couple... for that if we have 2 invest or put more effort lets do it. You are growing a bit of tummy too & i need 2 revive my abs. This lifestyle is what makes people fat" He also suggested I search online if I can find a not so expensive treadmill, and added to the offer that if I also agree to do situps with him every night he'll start wearing contacts (as I asked him).
I feel like exploding.