Today marks the two weeks until I go under the chopsticky knife... or whatever... I have some reflections on the last two weeks and some thoughts on the upcoming two.
Firstly, my last blog did not mean to call anyone out and/or shame/guilt anyone. That's why I said initially that grief messes with your head- I didn't know what it was that was making me feel abandoned... I assumed it was just grief and it's effects. I don't think I articulated that very well in my blog, but that's really all I meant. Still, I want thank everyone that commented on that blog and let me know I was in your thoughts. That was very much appreciated by me.
This week is my official finals week of the semester. Thank goodness, too. I'm totally burned out this semester and am looking forward to a bit of a break. I won't be taking summer school, as my college is not offering it (ahhh, California's budget slashes...) I had a final already a week ago in my Diet Therapy class. I'm pretty sure I did really bad on it. No, really, I'm not just saying that. And I did pretty poorly in that class all semester. It was 8a.m. and a struggle for me every morning (I'd wake up already in pain frequently), so I missed a lot of classes, plus I was bored of the material (pretty much a repeat of the other 6 classes I've already taken), and I was taking 3 other classes. All in all, with the amount of effort I put into the class (hovering in the 10% range) and the grades I got on my tests, I'd say I'd have been lucky to pull off a D. Checked yesterday to find I got a B. Now, I think that was just very generous of my teacher. No, really. If I had been my student, I woulda been like, "Pfffft! This jackass didn't do SQUAT in this class!" and I wouldn't have passed me. But, I did take the initiative early in the semester to tell her about my medical problems, plus I am in the DSS certificate program and she's in charge of it. Also, this class is required for my certificate. I think she took pity on me and gave me a passing grade... and a good one, at that.
I have two more finals to work on for this week. I'm doing a project which should actually be for the Diet Therapy class, but instead is for my Advanced Nutrition class... I'm writing a small research paper on the DASH diet and it's effectiveness treating hypertension. The last two times I've had my blood pressure taken, it's been in the pre-hypertensive range (even after I've lost some weight), so this paper has been really helpful. And, to be honest, the DASH diet would be a healthy diet for ANYONE to follow. And the other final is for my Commercial Cooking class, the most useless, but fun, class I've taken to date. Our instructor is supposed to e-mail us a study guide for our test on Friday. Here it is, already Wednesday, and my inbox is empty... That's a good testament to how reliable the instructor(s) have been in this class all semester. The only reason I'm even in the class is it's required for the DSS certificate. We have had no written assignments, no written tests, and only about 5 hours of lecture this entire semester. So, in order for us to take this written exam for this class, we really need his study guide, as our actual learning of anything in this class was extremely limited.
My activity level of late has more or less dropped off, as I'm spending so much time on tests and homework. But, I am staying fairly active in the meantime, with non-traditional exercises. I mowed the lawn on Sunday and it was much easier last time (regular maintenance for the win!) and I got a pretty good workout in, between emptying the clippings bag, cutting back some weeds, trimming the bamboo patch that I hate, and watering the lawn and plants. I enjoyed it. I'm keeping busy in that way, but haven't really gotten a good workout in. Maybe I will, maybe I won't. I'm not going to pressure myself this month.
My eating has been fair. I've cooked a few wonderful meals this month that were delicious and pretty healthy. I made posole for Cinco de Mayo and loaded it with cabbage, radishes, grilled onion, and deliciousness. So, so tasty! Then, I made a vegan ratatouille with tempeh. I was surprised at how good the tempeh was! I wasn't sure I'd like it. The whole dish was fabulous and I ate the leftovers on top of whole wheat pasta the next night. Then, a few days ago, I made chicken maison, which is essentially a chicken cooked with carrots and potatoes (at least in my version). It was very tasty and healthy as well. I actually took pics of that process for my blog, so as soon as I'm done with finals, I'll be updating that. It's been a while, but I haven't been motivated lately to do a full out recipe, photograph it, and write it up. In fact, this one will probably turn into two separate posts because I started with a whole chicken and had to cut into pieces. So, one technique post and one recipe post. Look forward to that!
Vegan Ratatouille w/ Tempeh and garlic bread (sorry for the fuzziness)
I had my pre-op ultrasound yesterday. It was quick, painless, and not unpleasant. I didn't even have to take off my clothes. Word. I did have to take a bus and it seems like waiting for buses defined my day yesterday. I missed the bus I intended to take by less than 1 minute, literally. I was crossing the street when it pulled up at the stop around the corner, but had already pulled away and left by the time I got to the stop itself. So, that meant a 15 minute wait. Then, I got to my second stop and had to wait for the next bus. All told, I was 10 minutes late to my appointment. I'm someone who likes to be punctual, so this was bothering me. I had to fast before my appointment so I was really hungry and thirsty all morning. After my appointment I rushed to the bus and waited for it to come. I was famished at this point (almost noon). I took the bus to UCSD's campus and realized it was their farmer's market day, so I walked to the center of campus and grabbed some lunch. I chose wisely- I had a giant cup of fruit, which had watermelon, jicama, cucumber, and mango, topped with lime juice and chili powder. YUM! I also had a prosciutto and mozzarella panini, but was so full from my fruit, I only ate half. And of course, I guzzled a bottle of water. Then, I went to wait, again, for the next bus to take me home. I swear, if this city would put a little more funding on the transportation system to make it more reliable, useful, and accurate, more people would use it. Invest in it, for goodness sakes, San Diego!!!
The upcoming two weeks I don't know what will bring. I have a BBQ planned for Saturday with some friends. And I'm hoping to do a Spark Rally of some sort on Sunday. I sort of initiated it, so I guess I should be the one taking the helm, but between homework and surgery prep, I fell by the wayside on that. :-S So, I guess we'll see. The rest of the time will be spent getting things ready for surgery. Getting supplies and cleaning and whatnot. So, I'll keep ya'll updated...