Discombobulated? I think?
Friday, June 08, 2012
Things have gotten all discombobulated. I’m not blogging correctly. Not here, not on my other two blogs. I’m not exercising like I was. I’m doing just the minimum to get by. I’m not pushing or trying for more. I’ve been both under my minimum and over my maximum on calories all in the same week. I got completely stressed out at work the other day, and although there were reasons, I have dealt with worse. Add to this, I didn’t care that Toby’s owner cancelled two weeks straight on me and I have a client email sitting in my box for 3 days that I have not responded to yet (my normal turnaround is 24 hours.) This is what was all going on in my head at 3 am while watching dogs sleep, so sleep is a definite issue also. So, I think discombobulated is the appropriate term.
Now I know someone is going to say that something is bothering me. You might be right. But I have no idea what it is. My stressors are the same as they have always been. Nothing new or earth shattering bothering me. I don’t think I’m depressed, outside of the one “stress day” I feel pretty good. I do have things I'm really looking forward to! Just feel that my head isn’t all here.
I think part of my problem (at least here on Spark) is that I am challenge motivated and I am not participating in any right now. I went looking online for a “virtual walk” but couldn’t find anything.
So, I have to get my head on straight. I need to get back into my routine. Daily Cardio. ST on Mon, Wed, and Fri. Planning dinner. Portioning my food for the WEEK (not chopping strawberries at 4 am for breakfast!). A REAL blog every day. Nightly bike rides. This is all stuff I WANT to do, need to do, but just keep going - bleh – and then not doing.
So I’m going to put this out for the world to see. I will make my 9,000 steps EVERYDAY. I will do my Cardio EVERYDAY with the Tazzy Spazzy. I will update my blog on schedule- Spark daily, Aspiration on Sunday, and Big Paws once a week (Wed or Fri). I will bike EVERY evening, even if I go alone for 20 minutes. I will portion my food on Sunday’s so I am set for the week. And this Sunday, I will contact all clients for next week.
I don’t know if this will clear my head, but having a daily plan should help keep me on task. If I have to make a bloody checklist I will. I have to have some order in my life. And I really need to stop rambling.