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Am I afraid of being thin?

Saturday, June 23, 2012

I have thought about this question for years. Since I have struggled with sabotaging my weight loss efforts on and off for years, I often wondered what was at the root of my issues.

Was I afraid to reach my goal? Is that why as soon as I get close, I tend to fall off track and gain weight? What was the problem? So my theory is not that I am afraid of being thin, but I am afraid to be done with losing weight.

So much of my life, personality, friendships, activities and thoughts are about weight loss. Even my conversations with my family revolve around food and exercise and how we are doing on our weight loss. I think once I achieve my goal, I am afraid that I will lose that part of myself,,,that bond with other people who are trying to lose weight. If I am no longer a person who is trying to lose weight,,,,then who am I ?? It's like losing my identity. Like I will be out of the club. I will be the person who is at goal weight, which is great, but I will never again have the thrill of seeing the numbers go down on the scale.

I think I am addicted to losing weight and seeing the numbers go down. Crazy and warped,,,,but that is my theory. At least it gives me some sort of answer as to why as soon as I start doing good, my subconscious steps in and I find myself binging. I am fighting it as best I can, and I hope that one day, I really can get to goal.
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  • KELLEY421
    Hey Sweetie. I think the exact same way. The closer I get to my goal, the more I seem to sabatoge myself. This is definately something that needs to be fixed, emoticon
    Miss you, and I am very glad to see you back here. I haven't used this site in a while, but have decided that I really need to start focusing again!
    3068 days ago
    Good blog
    3077 days ago
    I'm glad you are blogging and getting your feelings out there.

    The journey won't be over when we get to goal...it becomes another journey...a much harder one, in fact.

    Maybe that's the problem for us. Reaching goal makes you the weight loss superstar, the one who did the impossible...and with that comes a "weight" of burden to maintain that status. Maybe that's what we are afraid of...getting to goal, and having it slip away.
    3079 days ago

    I think a lot of us get bored, and we get impatient. After all, it takes a long time, and it's an awful lot of delayed gratification we put ourselves through.
    3081 days ago
    Here is the thing I never thought of till this blog. It is going to take lots of focus and work to maintain once we get to our ideal weight. And we are all going to need each other for that. This is just practice.
    3082 days ago
  • GUCCI9300
    Such good insight!! Thank you for sharing!! emoticon
    3082 days ago
  • CHEROKEE1946
    I think we all think about that. Good luck.
    3082 days ago
  • KINDRA96
    This is such an honest and interesting post. I think that you shouldn't be afraid to be thin. Even if you reach your goal you can focus on making sure the number stays the same. You can still talk about weight loss to people trying to lose weight and tell them what worked. Finally you can still workout and eat healthy with the people around you so you can maintain the weight. Don't be afraid to be thin and beautiful. You won't lose who you are trust me. Good luck and hope this helps.I love your honesty. emoticon
    3082 days ago
    Good Luck!
    3082 days ago
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