I have a confession to make which is leading to a goal.
Tuesday, August 07, 2012
I have not been in a bathing suit in public in the last 20 or more years. Keeping in mind that I am 38, that means I have never been swimming in public as an adult. That is how utterly insecure I am. I have been in shape during that time but I let my lack of breasts hold me back.
So I have a goal. Next summer I WILL buy a beautiful bathing suit that is flattering for small chests and I will take the family to the beach. I am done with letting my insecurities get in the way of living. That gives me just under a year to get my body in as fit a condition as I can.
Even as I type this I'm filled with fear and dread. But I will conquer this fear. In all reality, I wouldn't be laughed off the beach even as I am now but this gives me time to prepare myself more physically and mentally. It will be a huge moment for me.