Yeah, I know. I totally slacked on my blogging the end of this week. I'm fired. It was a HUGELY busy week. Which, is good. Busy keeps me from being a sloth, and from being all lazy and not wanting to cook or do anything that helps myself. I don't see the busy slowing down anytime soon, and that's OK, too. Really the only downside is that I don't get as much time to blog or read. I shall figure it out, eventually.
So, I just finished my first 30 days of drops on the HCG diet yesterday. I have a lot going on in my head about the past month, and what it has brought me. Overall, it was a really good experience, and I'm so glad that I've done it, and I will be doing it again. (That is the summation, in case you don't have time to read everything I'm about to write, or if you get bored. lol)
As of this morning, I'm officially 17 pounds down - at 258. Now, I had lost a few of those pounds before I started the HCG, but only within a few days before I started. Because the week before I started, I weighed in at my heaviest - 275. I'm soooo excited to see that 5 there in the middle - it makes my heart explode! I'll be honest, I hadn't really been tracking my weight all that much the last few years, and I don't know when I was here last. I just know that I'm oh so very glad to be here now.
I have said many many times that I screwed up and I could have done so much better. I had days where I looked at my diet square in the eyes and told it to take a flying leap because I'm going to eat this crap and there's nothing anyone can do to stop me. But I also learned major lessons from those days, and I think I'm a heckuva lot stronger now than I've ever been. I know that sometimes, I'm going to want a bacon double cheeseburger with mushrooms, because I love that flavor combination. And I'm going to want french fries because they are my addiction. I'm going to want wine and chocolate - because I'm a woman and I have children that drive me to drink ;) ... And all of those things are perfectly fine. Once in awhile. The rest of the time, fresh fruits, crisp vegetables, lean meats are going to be my favorite things. And I'm oh so very excited. The biggest achievement? I am almost completely soda free. I've had no more than 2 a week this entire time - and still haven't had Coke since December. This time last year, I was drinking about a 2-liter of coke every single day (at least).
I'm considering writing a separate blog about these 3 pairs of shorts I have, because it is just funny. For now, I will say that they all fit differently. (And someone, remind me to tell that story this week, because I'll totally forget.) I wore a belt for the first time in years this month. Yesterday, I wore a pair of jeans that I bought after some weight loss, was able to wear twice, then had to put them back at the bottom of the stack after I put everything back on. I'm going to wear them again today, I'll take a picture and post it. They don't look awesome, because I still have the spare tire that gets a little squished inside them. But they fit and the feel comfortable. They're size 20. I think I'm going to start looking for a size 18 on sale to use as my next target pair. 18. Been a long time since I've been there. *happy dance* OH! And I moved to the next row of clips in on my top unmentionable. Yeah, I mentioned it. ;)
This was July 19 ... and Today:
Hips: 56.5" ... 57" .... +0.5"
Waist: 51" ... 50.5" ... -0.5"
Chest: 49" ... 52" ... +3"
Right Bicep: 21.5" ... 15" ... -6.5"
Left Bicep: 20.75" ... 16" ... -4.25"
Right Thigh: 24" ... 23" ... -1"
Left Thigh: 24.5" ... 24" ... -0.5"
Right Calf: 14.5" ... 17" ... +2.5"
Left Calf: 14" ... 17" ... +3"
Total: I lost 3.75 inches. But some of those measurements (like my calves) don't make sense at all. I guess we'll have to see what happens in 30 more days.
I still feel a little rough around the edges when it comes to certain feelings. I still can't control the binges when I feel one coming on. No matter what the diet books tell you, when you want a bacon double cheeseburger with mushrooms, a veggie burger with cucumbers isn't going to be the same. When I want to eat THIS, I'm going to eat THIS and absolutely will not settle for THAT. (If you haven't read it, Eat This, Not That is a really good book, and I'm not slamming them. Just admitting my own faults.) I still have a lot of fear. What if 17 pounds is the best I'll ever be able to do? I'm off the drops and getting ready to resume normal caloric intake (minus carbs and sweets). What if I gain a lot - or ALL - of that 17 back? I'm sooo scared. I know I can make a plan, and I know that I'll have days when I stick to it, and I know I'll have days when I flake out. But what is that going to look like as far as the numbers go? How much is this going to screw me up?? I'm really worried I'll be back to where I started from.
Overall Emotional Outlook:
Despite my fears, I'm pretty pleased with the results. I've done oh so much better than I ever have before. I had soooo much encouragement and support from friends. My husband was my HERO, and even my kids were great. With such an incredible support system, I know that the rest of my journey is going to be a lot easier than it ever has been. Amazing what a difference a few people can make. (There's a story here somewhere about ripples and ponds and saving the entire world. But honestly? I'm too tired to go down that road this morning.) I'm really glad, despite a few naysayers, that I chose this route for my weight loss. And I'm going to keep on the HCG path.
Let's go back and review my goals ... I haven't done that in awhile.
(Sorry K8, I know, I'm fired.)
Start - never see again! 268.5 (BMI 43.3)
1. BMI below 43 - Weight: 266.9 .... ACHIEVED!!
2. Lose 5 lbs - 263.5 ... ACHIEVED!!
3. Get under 260 ... ACHIEVED!!
4. BMI below 42 - Weight: 259.5 .. ACHIEVED!!
5. Lose 10 lbs - 258.5 .. ACHIEVED!! (See? I may have lost 17lbs total, but I've lost TEN just on this diet, w00h00!)
6. Lose 5% - 255.075 ... YOU'RE NEXT!!
The next step:
According to the HCG plan, I did 30 days of drops. I stopped yesterday. Today and tomorrow, I have to continue the 800 calorie diet. Then, 3 weeks of a healthy diet with no carbs and no sweets. Then, I'm supposed to start adding those back in carefully. Then, you repeat the cycle if more weight loss is desired.
Well, since I'm still over 250 pounds, and my goal weight is under 200, I obviously have a long way to go still. So, I'm going to do the next 30 days as healthy diets with no sweets and only a bit of carbs. I miss my morning cereal. It is my favorite breakfast. And not crap cereals, I like healthy ones. So, I'll return to cereal in the morning, and have one order of fries and one soda per week ... If I've been good. Other than that, no carbs, no sweets. At the end of those 30, then I'll return to the drops for another cycle.
I'm going to start today as day 1, because I had cereal this morning, even though I wasn't supposed to. ;) I also get to go back to working out again, and I'm really really excited about that. I was going to start the 30-day Shred, but then NinjaPirateRants Manda said that she was going to make a challenge for us starting September 1, so I'll join along with her. Until then, I'm just going to keep busy and keep moving. Hopefully doing more swimming than I have done this past week (just couldn't get it in the schedule), and maybe squishing in a walk here and there. I'm going to try and plan one thing every single day. Going to the playground, walking around Target, something anything whatever just to keep my self up and going. The moment I sit, I'm done for.
Today? Princess turns 11 on Tuesday, and we already had her actual birthday "party" (the sushi/pedi day), but today we're going to do a "Disney Transportation Day". We go park at one of the resorts, walk around and have fun, then take a boat / monorail / bus to another resort and do it again. We make a big circle, have a LOT of fun. It is amazing how much fun you can have there without actually going into the parks. Kids love these days, and we always get really great shots. Its raining tho. Ick. But we'll still have fun. I'm going to try and get over to the potato head to get a new picture of me. See if there is any change. ;)
Have a great weekend, everyone! Be well, stay strong!