What went wrong?
Thursday, August 30, 2012
I'm back after a 3 month break from SP. It wasn't entirely intentional: I went on holiday in June and felt good in a bikini for the first time in years, I was 142lb and almost at my target of 140lb. I started relaxing about counting calories and weighing food/watching my portions.
I got lazy and didn't keep up with my exercise regimen. It got to the stage where I wasn't exercising at all. I tried the odd jog but really lost all motivation to do anything.
Work started stressing my out and my anxiety came back and to cope with it, I started binge eating. As coping mechanisms go, it was terrible! I put on 12lb in 3 months. It doesn't sound terrible but none of my lovely new clothes fit anymore and now my bikini confidence is at rock bottom.
What has changed?
I am starting University at the end of September, I'm moving to London and going to be a student again. I don't want to be fat! I want to be fit again!
Today I recorded all my food and it came to ~1800 calories, my target range is 1300-1600 so I'm a bit over today but I wanted to get a baseline. I managed 40 minutes of walking/jogging today but my chest gets so tight, I feel really unfit, my poor lungs! I've joined a running club too, they have a beginners course on Tuesday and Thursday evenings. Since I'm new to the area I thought it would be a nice way to make some friends, feeling a bit lonely. It's just me and the boyfriend in London, all my friends are back up North.
I don't want to be a quitter! I've done it once, slipped up and I'm back on the wagon! Tomorrow's challenge, to get in range calorie wise and do some more exercise!