Why is life have to be so hard.
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Well I have been having a difficult time not teaching but also now my mother-in-law has cancer that has spread. She had her port put in yesterday and I think reality is finally setting in that she is really sick. We pray ever day that she has a quality of life so that she may enjoy her family and friends. The chemo will hopefully do that. She is very positive, a very strong woman with a great deal of faith.
I am very numb over this whole thing. I am full of emotions that I just can't let go of. But I am trying to stay positive around her and trying to spend so quality time together.
All of this is playing havoc on my depression. My emotions are inside and that is bringing me down. The thought of losing my what i call her as my other mom makes me so sad.
Not going to school has not helped because I have time to fill and time to think and that is not good.
Even though I will walk this weekend in the Race for the Cure for breast cancer I will also walk for my mother-in-law. My mom is celebrating 24 years of a cancer free life since her mastectomy.
I'm going to close for now and hope that etch day brings a good day for all involved in my mother-in-laws life including her.