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I'm so over this!....

Friday, September 14, 2012

I am 25 years old. I weigh almost 280 pounds. How did I let myself get this big..? Why did I let myself go..? I've gained weight before at my heaviest I weighed 220. The day I saw that weight on the scale I thought to myself... Never again. And I never saw that weight again. I lost all the weight. This time when I saw my weight get to 200 I figured, no big deal when I get to 220 I will check myself and lose weight from there. that didn't happen..., in fact, I even gained more weight!!! I'm so sick of not fitting in my clothes, running after my nieces and nephews, and simple things like crossing my legs. It's pathetic that I can barely tie my shoes. I'm done being a slave to my body. I want to brake free from this cocoon and be a butterfly. I want to fall in love, start a family and I want to feel like myself. I know there are people out there who might only have 15 pounds to lose and there are also people who have way more to lose than me. All I know is I'm done choosing food and laziness over skinniness and health. I'm ready to do this!!! Hopefully for good. Lol.. Good luck all!
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  • WATERDIAMONDS
    You are making such a wise decision to do this at 25...rather than at 45!

    Best of success to you on this journey back to great health.

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    3097 days ago
  • FENWAYGIRL18
    I feel for you I was like you at that age and I just decided one day that I had to lose the weight if I ever wanted my dreams to come true...
    I wanted to find a nice man
    I wanted kids
    I wanted to be loved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so badly!!!!!!!!!
    I did lose the weight, I found my soul mate shortly afterwards, we got married and we have a beautiful son!
    I HAD TO BELIEVE IN MYSELF, I HAD TO PROVE SOME PEOPLE WRONG , THIS ONE LADY TOLD ME I COULDN'T DO IT (I SAW HER FACE IN EVERY PIECE OF CHOCOLATE, EVERY PIECE OF CAKE, EVERYTHING FATTENING THAT I WAS OFFERED I SAW HER FACE LAUGHING AT ME SAYING I TOLD YOU SO).
    You know you have to love yourself enough to do this in order for anyone else to love you.... Your a very pretty young lady, start living your life and find that special someone who is going to cherish you. I'm sure you could find someone now, but I bet your so negative about your body that it shows to a young man...
    BELIEVE IN YOU AND LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO DO THIS, YOU KNOW YOU CAN! emoticon
    Don't think of this as a diet, think of it as a lifestyle change and remember all the little things add up!
    3097 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/14/2012 1:59:59 AM
  • no profile photo CD2235961
    Sometime a person can be in depression and don't know about it. A person with depression can start to eat to fulfill the loneliness. If you feel like you are alone or don't want to do things that you liked before; you need to go to the Dr for evaluation. GOD BLESS YOU.
    3097 days ago
  • EVAMARIE87
    The main reason is my medication makes me extra hungry, plus it makes me gain weight on its own. So it's a constant battle. Thanks for your advise.
    3097 days ago
  • MAGGIEVAN
    By the way... it has nothing to do with luck and all to do with planning.
    3097 days ago
  • MAGGIEVAN
    Please find out why you over eat. It is so very important because if you don't address that you will just be doctoring the symptoms. Take the time and do this first. Then take baby steps. Pick something like drinking 8 glasses of water and stick to it. When you feel you have established a habit then add another thing to it. You might think it is going to take years but you will be surprised at how fast your body and reward you.
    3097 days ago
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