Just another day!
Tuesday, October 09, 2012
I am just so off, anxious, sad and angry. The thing that frustrates me the most is that all of these emotions are hitting me like a brick wall.
All of these emotions pertain to my life in general but they hit me hardest when i think of my mother-in-law. I am sad for her but I can't cry, I am anxious just knowing everyday what she's going thru and angry that it happened to her.
I also share these emotions within myself about my life everyday. Today my mind is spinning so out of control i just want to blow my head off.
I am having anxiety going into the grocery store and other places. So much anxiety that i am scratching myself like places on my body really itch.
Today i am just trying to get by. Trying to keep busy but am having a hard time just getting up and getting motivated.
I don't see my therapist for a week because she is out of town. I really fall back when she's gone and i don't have my session. She told me i could email or text her. But I haven't heard from her. I get scared when I am like this.
I am taking soup to my mother-in-laws later so that should get me up to take a shower and go over there.
Sorry this blog is so depressing for those that need motivation but I just had to let go today. I hope everyone else has a great day. Bye for now.