The battle of the Birthday cake and day 46
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Monday was Compa’s Birthday. I knew there would be cake involved and I knew that I didn’t want to eat any. It’s not that I think one slice of cake is all that bad; it is what that one slice of cake, for me, will lead to. You see I have been doing really well the past few weeks, most of my cravings are gone (for now – I know from experience that I will continue to struggle from time to time). I also know from experience that one slice of cake can set off the cycle.
So my 9 year old niece came up with this not too dainty slice of cake and held it out to me. It did look good – luckily it wasn’t chocolate!
I said “no thank you.”
To which she replied, “I’m going to stand here holding it until you take it.”
I kind of laughed and said “no thank you.”
She said “why?”
I think she was a little upset because I had also turned down the hamburger she had brought me the night before.
I told her “because if I have that slice of cake I am going to want more and more.”
She got happy then and said “that’s ok, I can bring you more and more.”
Now I was really laughing and I told her “no it’s not good for me to eat more and more, so no thank you.” Then she turned and took the cake away.
Later on Compa came up licking his fingers and asking me why I don’t want any of his delicious cake. I told him that I was sure that it was delicious but if I started I wouldn’t be able to stop, so it was better not to start.
Thus I was victorious over this particular Birthday cake!!
Today is day 46 of my exercise streak. It really is becoming more of a habit and that makes me proud. I wonder if the day will come when I won’t even have to think about it, when I will just do it. I don’t know, but for now I will just keep moving forward one day at a time!