Putting off the blog... need to get it out

Well, a lot has happened in 2 months.

A lot.

Stress, feeling like crap, losing my trainer, losing my motivation, trying like hell to find it back, talking myself up, bringing myself down.

Gaining 10 pounds... GAINING 10 POUNDS!

Pants not fitting right.

Busting a zipper.

tears

Possibly changing jobs. (fingers crossed) many, many interviews. Finding the job THE JOB, and getting through 3 interviews in 4 weeks. Feels like it's a never ending high-low emotional rollercoaster of anticipation and near let down then back up to looking positive to hear nothing again for days on end. Trying to remain positive there.

Home remodel... NEVER ENDING FREEKING HOUSE REMODEL!

Dealing with all of this and trying to figure out a new workout plan, going it alone, knowing I can do this, knowing I am smart enough but not having the internal will to do it.

Trying to spend time with the kid and husband and friends and family and being a good wife, mother, friend, daughter, sister.... self....

Overwhelmed and underwhelmed.

Trying to eat right, but wanting to emotionally endulge in garbage.... oh delicious garbage.

Going to break through, just have to get the stressors out, have to let go of it all and give in to my self to trust myself and my wisdom... I will get through this. I will feel better and this stinking 10 pounds will go back away....

I will make this work!!!