Feelings about Week 3
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Week three was a crazy week for me. I started the week just feeling angry. I felt as if my daughter was sucking the life out of me. That everything was about her and I want this time to be selfish and about me now. When you turn 21 you should be in charge of your life and not so dependent and I was feeling like she will always be pulling the wind out of my sails.
I worked out with my trainer that morning and she counseled me and let me know that it is ok to let her stumble and struggle a little, it will make her stronger. I know that, but I feel like such an enabler at the time and I get frustrated when my girlfriend enables her son, but here I am making an easy path for her. This is going to be a personal struggle for me and maybe one of my resolutions for next year.... I am working hard on my resolutions for this year and I am focusing on me right now.
I only worked out with the trainer one time last week. I kept in contact. I worked out on my own, but I did have two rest days. I lost 2.5 lbs which I am very happy with.
I am making this journey for me one day at a time. I am only good to my family and friends if I am good to myself. It is time to be good.