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Conquering a Demon

Monday, October 29, 2012

I HATE taking pictures!!! emoticon This is not a recent discovery, but a life-long affliction. It's even a family joke that I find a way to avoid them. I have developed techniques over the years that make it easy...running to the bathroom, going to another room, being outside if they are inside...lots of stealthy maneuvering emoticon You can look at pictures of family vacations and not realize that I was there too. And if I am caught hiding out and then physically forced to be in them, I am so hidden behind someone else that it wasn't worth the effort to get me there. emoticon I never even owned a camera until last year when I went to Europe...and took lots of pictures of the scenery...lol

There are various reasons for this behavior; lack of self-worth would probably top the list. But an overwhelming one is....I am the oldest of five sisters(also have 2 brothers, but they don't factor in to this story) The younger sisters are ALL gorgeous emoticon . I have always felt like the "ugly duckling", without the transformational ending, and I genuinely suffer by comparison. So why subject myself to that by taking pictures?

So Imagine my horror when one of my sisters presented us all with an early Christmas present...an afternoon at Glamour Shots and posing for pictures!!!! If you're not familiar with it, they do your hair and make-up and then you do different poses for pictures. Naturally my sisters are loving this, but I have been dreading this day for weeks!! I know I have lost weight, so at least that aspect of it will be better, but I also know I still pale in comparison in the looks department. emoticon

Anyway, this past Saturday was D-Day and guess what...it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The hair and make-up was actually fun....the posing was still difficult for me, but we laughed A LOT at the crazy ways they would pose us. And the finished product...well, it wasn't horrible. My sisters all complimented me and convinced me to even purchase one of the individual poses of myself. Not exactly sure what I'll do with it, but it will be evidence that I can use to remind myself to face my demons. Maybe I'll post it on here when we get them. And in the future, I think now I'll join in the family photo sessions...probably still in the back, but at least you'll be able to see me now. emoticon
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    emoticon I'm so happy you were able to overcome your fear and actually enjoyed the time with your sisters. I usually hate the way I look in pictures too. One of my big aha moments is that we have to learn to love overselves and stop the negative self-talk. emoticon emoticon
    2914 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12301615
    Good for you! I too HATE having pictures taken... and with the holidays coming and having gained most of the weight I have lost back due to being put back on insulin.... well I am not looking forward to this again. Please post your pic when you get it back.
    2917 days ago
    oh wow..... this blog is so me !! I too hate my picture being taken. I pose for them with friends and then really hope to NEVER see them again. LOL... I am so impressed that you went and it wasn't as bad as you thought. ! You do need to be present with your sisters because you really never know how long you'll have them in your life !! I really enjoyed your blog and can relate ! I think I've done well on my diet and think I look nice and someone takes a photo or pic .... and OUCH .... there for all the world to see is how :"Bad " I look.... !!

    2918 days ago
    Awww...I'm glad you have overcome this. I think we can all relate. I used to hate to have my picture taken. And like you, it would be hard to tell I was there. I feel like I was MIA for years upon years. Now, I'm showing up...and it's nice...and I even LIKE having my picture taken. It's so strange. Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon
    2920 days ago
    I'm glad you were able to get past your fears & enjoy the day with your sisters, and I can't wait to see your "pose". I hope you will decide to share it with your SP friends!
    2922 days ago
    Way to face your fear! Sounds like you had a lovely time with your sisters. Way to go :)
    2922 days ago
    That's what I call progress-congrats!

    2922 days ago
    I'm with you and I"m glad you took what could have been a miserable day and made it into a memory filled one with your sisters!! Congrats!!!
    2923 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11997018
    YAY for you! I absolutely hate having my picture taken, so I am so impressed with you for having done this. Good for you!!!! emoticon
    2923 days ago
    I am so glad you had fun doing this w/your sisters! HUGS and just for the record, you ARE beautiful!!
    2923 days ago
    Glad to hear you conquered a fear. The fear is always there, we just cannot let it overcome us. I am thinking about how happy your sisters are about sharing the glam shots experience with you and having something to remember it by - a picture of you!

    2923 days ago
    You don't have to be prettier than your sisters. You just have to be you.
    2923 days ago
    What a great way to face your fears! Congratulations! :) I still hate pictures but at least I look somewhat good in them now. :)
    2923 days ago
    I LOVED your blog and your honesty. emoticon for trying to accept your outer beauty with photos. (Your inner beauty is obvious.)
    2923 days ago
    How brave you are to conquer that fear! Definitely use your picture as an inspiration.
    2923 days ago
    Good for you for facing one of your fears and realizing that you can do something and make the best of it even if you don't like it! It's hard to deal with our self image issues, we all have them though. I think my mother is beautiful but she never thinks so, I don't undertsnad it because I only see her beuty, but I try to understand and help her see what i see.

    Great and very important blog, thanks for sharing!
    2923 days ago
    emoticon Teresa! It never matters if our fears make sense to anyone else. Facing them is always an act of courage, so Yay You! emoticon
    Thanks for sharing this success with us! emoticon
    Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon
    2923 days ago
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