I HATE taking pictures!!!
This is not a recent discovery, but a life-long affliction. It's even a family joke that I find a way to avoid them. I have developed techniques over the years that make it easy...running to the bathroom, going to another room, being outside if they are inside...lots of stealthy maneuvering
You can look at pictures of family vacations and not realize that I was there too. And if I am caught hiding out and then physically forced to be in them, I am so hidden behind someone else that it wasn't worth the effort to get me there.
I never even owned a camera until last year when I went to Europe...and took lots of pictures of the scenery...lol
There are various reasons for this behavior; lack of self-worth would probably top the list. But an overwhelming one is....I am the oldest of five sisters(also have 2 brothers, but they don't factor in to this story) The younger sisters are ALL gorgeous
. I have always felt like the "ugly duckling", without the transformational ending, and I genuinely suffer by comparison. So why subject myself to that by taking pictures?
So Imagine my horror when one of my sisters presented us all with an early Christmas present...an afternoon at Glamour Shots and posing for pictures!!!! If you're not familiar with it, they do your hair and make-up and then you do different poses for pictures. Naturally my sisters are loving this, but I have been dreading this day for weeks!! I know I have lost weight, so at least that aspect of it will be better, but I also know I still pale in comparison in the looks department.
Anyway, this past Saturday was D-Day and guess what...it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The hair and make-up was actually fun....the posing was still difficult for me, but we laughed A LOT at the crazy ways they would pose us. And the finished product...well, it wasn't horrible. My sisters all complimented me and convinced me to even purchase one of the individual poses of myself. Not exactly sure what I'll do with it, but it will be evidence that I can use to remind myself to face my demons. Maybe I'll post it on here when we get them. And in the future, I think now I'll join in the family photo sessions...probably still in the back, but at least you'll be able to see me now.