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Ghoulish tale of a Saboteur!

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

A month ago I found the strength to commit to a healthier way of life. Slowly slowy I began changing my diet and stratagizing a plan. Work outs with the trainer from Hell. I surprised myself and fared well. Each week I find myself getting stronger. Making choices and working out longer. Slowly slowly weight is coming off.
A week and a half ago chip ahoy cookies came through my door. I saw them there and my jaw hit the floor! Who would bring cookies around me? Smells of sugar was such a tease! I did not give into them, not one cookie did I eat! I was proud of myself to ignore those treats.
A few days later I went to a party. I had two glasses of wine; it was a great time. I walked through my door and to my disbelief Oreos and McDonalds, Oh good Grief! This time my resistance was down. I ate some potato sticks and three little cookies. My calories went through the roof! My will power had gone aloof! I tracked all those calories and I gasped! I forgave myself and let the moment pass!
Today is a day of trick or treat. I know there will not be many if any that I will greet. So I strategize and buy a few treats. I figure my husband and daughter will eat them, I will retreat! I walk through the door to see on my table three bags of candy! Ok my limmerick is lame. My sense of will control no longer contained! I can get peeved about this... I can whine to you about it.... But instead I will add a plead to the saboteur that is messing with my head...
I love you dear daughter, you know that I do. I am working my butt off to be healthier its true. Please do not bring treats around me right now. I am working so hard and I feel that you are trying to bring me down. I have ignored the first two times and today I will too, but I do not want to keep testing my will power. Please please read this and know I love you, but I need your help...

This Ghoulish tale is over... It will end up ok! I bought some grapes to eat. I will eat them today. Do you plan your treat? do you count it in? Or do you resist the urge?
Today is a first I am asking for help!
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  • JLITT62
    Wow, I'm so impressed in multiple ways! Your family needs a talking to about what support means.
    3083 days ago
    I'm proud of you!
    3083 days ago
    I try to think of each piece as a lump on my arms or thighs.
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    No thanks!!!
    3083 days ago
    I can certainly relate, Jeanne, with the business of trying to resist the treats. Just writing this blog should be a big help. I know reading it has already helped me.
    When I say I can relate, I've been fighting with myself for over a year now and I'm always around food (JUNK FOOD) at work and it IS a bugger to resist that temptation.

    Getting around Spark as much and maybe having a woman to woman talk with Jacquie might help.

    Love you, Kiddo!
    3083 days ago
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