It all seems so fragile
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
The memories of christmas of my younger days are of a large number of assorted relatives getting together in loud boisterous groups. Smashed together in small houses with lots of food and cold winter weather. Now the holiday get togethers are small with polite adults eating fewer rich dishes and drinking a lot less alcohol. The connections between many of the family have either been broken by death, moves to cities far away, changes in interests that make conversations awkward, divorces or just getting older. The connections seem so fragile and each year seem to decrease so that it is memories of people that christmas brings back to me. I make some phone calls just to hear voices to help me keep the past alive with people who are special. Then the people who are very close arrive for dinner and I am happy in my present connections and grateful they are in my life. The memories slip away into the shadows of christmas and wait to be revived again next year.