New Year Same Warrior

Jan, 1st
weight 240 lbs.

Well it's a new year. A new promise to myself. And a whole new start....sorta. See this isn't a brand new begining for me just, a rededication. I looked into a mirror last april and I didn't like what I saw. I looked old tired worn down fat and about thirty years older than I am. Even though the holiday won this round this is not the end.It one one battle. Not the war. My goals are obtainable, I am not trying to win the lottery, or get stuck by lighting twice, I'm not even trying to spot big foot. (though that would be way cool!) I am trying to be healthy and take better care of my self. So here is what I am doing and how I am going to do it.


1. QUIT SMOKING
I am using the nico stop filter program
First Week Smoke once every 1hr.
Second Week Smoke once every 1hr. with nico stop filter
Third Week Smoke once every 2 hrs with filter
Fourth Week Smoke once every 3 hrs.with filter
Fith Week Smoke once every 4 hrs. with filter
Sixth Week Smoke once every 5 hrs. with filter
So on and so fourth till I am weened off nicotine. And if for some reason me HMO gets it's head out of it butt, I will chuck the nico Stops for the patch. Also NO SMOKING IN THE HOUSE!!!!!

2. HIT GOAL WEIGHT OF 135 -140
Between portion control, exersize, living smart, And of coarse useing the tools at spark people. I got this. I am making a few tweeks though.
Although I railed against them I am getting a few work out dvd's and, I am trying to wean my self off of so much suger.
But other than that I am just trying to get back on scedule. I never fought my weight and the holidays at the same time. So I am figuring out what I did wrong and not do it again. Going from 210 to 240 in two months.....yeh time to get back on track.

3. BLOG, SKECTH JORNAL, OR WRITE DAILY
This is my bird one. I "fly" right through this one. I have jornals on and off line. I have "slam books" for really crappy days, I have about 12 different sketch pads in use right now. and 3 different bloggs. I have found if I can't write it out draw it out. or blog It doesn't effect me enough to warrent writting it down. I am always doing one or the other. But lately I have been slacking off in that aspect when I get stressed. so back to making myself be catharticly creative.

4. BUY SCALE AND FULL LIEGHT MIRROR BY APRIL
This isn't so much a resolution but a dead line. No more wussing out I can't doge them if their in my home yah know? At first I thought I would not get them until I felt confident enough, You know the whole stessed about not lose x amount of pounds and not looking a certin way. But keeping the mirror and scale out of my house ened up being a way for me to doge them easyer. so on Dec 30 I bought a digital scale and I am getting written permission to mount a full leght mirror on my bathroom door........fun I think I am dreading that the most.

5. THREE HRS OF RELIGIOUSE STUDY A WEEK
This goes along with better mind body and sole. I am Wiccan but I think using any higher power to aid youy whether it is the Lord and Lady or God or Budda what ever makes it easyer for any burden to bare. We get so caught up with or day to day lives that we forget to aprciate the wonder around us. and it makes our life harder. So no more taking for granted for me.

6. SPEND MORE TIME ON ME
I was taught pride of self is a sin. That translated to not spending much time on myself and not getting lifes little indugences. Why get that great smelling lotion that is great for your skin When off brand jergens works? Yeh, it doesn't work as well and you have to use twice as much to make it effective but spending $12.00 on a lotion?! You see where I am going with this, My thrift effected not just me spending habits but other things as well. good arch support shoes, really nice clothes getting my hair done. All the things that I subconciuosly saw as vanity went to the way side. At first I thought it might be self estem but I did a self portrate and I didn't look old and ugly I just looked like me. Well a me that pampers me a little better, but still me. It took me a while to figure that out, but thanks to a good friend of mine I pretty much had a face palm moment. And now when I say no, It is to expensive or some like that I am taking a step back and asking my self if it really is. Or am I being a putz.

FINAILLY
I had one more resolution planned about being a better team leader, but I am going to be honest. I have no clue what I was doing. I became team leader to be support. I am great as a support member but as leader, I kept missing dead lines and not getting the monthly challenge up. It turned into a dead team. Granted most the members are spark ghost but in part that can be blamed on me as well. So If any team members want to take over please let me know I will gladly hand the rains over to some one who is more talented in that department than I. I think it is because I was never a team type a person I was the one kid in P.E. who wandered off and tried to climb all the trees in under 30 min. I'm a do my own thing kinda gal but strangely I am very good in support roles....go figure


Well that's about it. I am going to start making a consentrated effort to get my Sunday Extras back I have a couple waiting in the wings that need to be polished up, and they will be ready to go. until then ta ta!



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