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New Year Same Warrior

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Jan, 1st
weight 240 lbs.

Well it's a new year. A new promise to myself. And a whole new start....sorta. See this isn't a brand new begining for me just, a rededication. I looked into a mirror last april and I didn't like what I saw. I looked old tired worn down fat and about thirty years older than I am. Even though the holiday won this round this is not the end.It one one battle. Not the war. My goals are obtainable, I am not trying to win the lottery, or get stuck by lighting twice, I'm not even trying to spot big foot. (though that would be way cool!) I am trying to be healthy and take better care of my self. So here is what I am doing and how I am going to do it.

I am using the nico stop filter program
First Week Smoke once every 1hr.
Second Week Smoke once every 1hr. with nico stop filter
Third Week Smoke once every 2 hrs with filter
Fourth Week Smoke once every 3 hrs.with filter
Fith Week Smoke once every 4 hrs. with filter
Sixth Week Smoke once every 5 hrs. with filter
So on and so fourth till I am weened off nicotine. And if for some reason me HMO gets it's head out of it butt, I will chuck the nico Stops for the patch. Also NO SMOKING IN THE HOUSE!!!!!

2. HIT GOAL WEIGHT OF 135 -140
Between portion control, exersize, living smart, And of coarse useing the tools at spark people. I got this. I am making a few tweeks though.
Although I railed against them I am getting a few work out dvd's and, I am trying to wean my self off of so much suger.
But other than that I am just trying to get back on scedule. I never fought my weight and the holidays at the same time. So I am figuring out what I did wrong and not do it again. Going from 210 to 240 in two months.....yeh time to get back on track.

This is my bird one. I "fly" right through this one. I have jornals on and off line. I have "slam books" for really crappy days, I have about 12 different sketch pads in use right now. and 3 different bloggs. I have found if I can't write it out draw it out. or blog It doesn't effect me enough to warrent writting it down. I am always doing one or the other. But lately I have been slacking off in that aspect when I get stressed. so back to making myself be catharticly creative.

This isn't so much a resolution but a dead line. No more wussing out I can't doge them if their in my home yah know? At first I thought I would not get them until I felt confident enough, You know the whole stessed about not lose x amount of pounds and not looking a certin way. But keeping the mirror and scale out of my house ened up being a way for me to doge them easyer. so on Dec 30 I bought a digital scale and I am getting written permission to mount a full leght mirror on my bathroom door........fun I think I am dreading that the most.

This goes along with better mind body and sole. I am Wiccan but I think using any higher power to aid youy whether it is the Lord and Lady or God or Budda what ever makes it easyer for any burden to bare. We get so caught up with or day to day lives that we forget to aprciate the wonder around us. and it makes our life harder. So no more taking for granted for me.

I was taught pride of self is a sin. That translated to not spending much time on myself and not getting lifes little indugences. Why get that great smelling lotion that is great for your skin When off brand jergens works? Yeh, it doesn't work as well and you have to use twice as much to make it effective but spending $12.00 on a lotion?! You see where I am going with this, My thrift effected not just me spending habits but other things as well. good arch support shoes, really nice clothes getting my hair done. All the things that I subconciuosly saw as vanity went to the way side. At first I thought it might be self estem but I did a self portrate and I didn't look old and ugly I just looked like me. Well a me that pampers me a little better, but still me. It took me a while to figure that out, but thanks to a good friend of mine I pretty much had a face palm moment. And now when I say no, It is to expensive or some like that I am taking a step back and asking my self if it really is. Or am I being a putz.

I had one more resolution planned about being a better team leader, but I am going to be honest. I have no clue what I was doing. I became team leader to be support. I am great as a support member but as leader, I kept missing dead lines and not getting the monthly challenge up. It turned into a dead team. Granted most the members are spark ghost but in part that can be blamed on me as well. So If any team members want to take over please let me know I will gladly hand the rains over to some one who is more talented in that department than I. I think it is because I was never a team type a person I was the one kid in P.E. who wandered off and tried to climb all the trees in under 30 min. I'm a do my own thing kinda gal but strangely I am very good in support roles....go figure

Well that's about it. I am going to start making a consentrated effort to get my Sunday Extras back I have a couple waiting in the wings that need to be polished up, and they will be ready to go. until then ta ta!

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    I too have strayed & have to get back on track. We can do this together! Love the cartoon!
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    2941 days ago
    I just don't want you to put yourself down because you feel like you have to be perfect or can't do things the way others do. I see the brave zombie bride who was not afraid to stand in front of others. You can give up leadership because of time constraints. But that is like letting some other chick dance with your boyfriend that brought you to the dance ,but he did not dance with you because you did not attempt to dance with him. hmmmm.
    2941 days ago
    ...( old as heck,takes a while)...........okay! let's start with leadership. you can be a good leader. You know the objective you want to achieve,you need follow through. It needs to be about the deeeds and not the words,per say. You could give a great speech but if you don't back it with actions,they are just words.Yep,I said it.
    The goals you set out here are what a good leader does. You have to buy into the plan to get them done. If you do not,no one else will either.Show your team by getting them done. Even if you fail ,it shows that it is more deeds and not words.
    The goals you set for your team.You need to be about what YOU are doing to get them done and checking and encouraging your teamates to get them done also.
    Just giving up and passing the torch is not what a good leader does. They dig deeper to work harder to get back on track.
    If you are truly commited to what you posted here. The words need action. Not excuses when you feel like using one.BAM! .. I'm such a butthole,but you know that.
    I want you to do this. It is time you pushed yourself to do this. You have the inner strength to do this.
    The girl who climbed the tree instead of being interested in P.E. guess what.she was forgaging her own path and did not care.Don't you see that,Alissa.A leader does this. He or she is not following the path of othere,they are leading the way on their own path.
    Good luck to you. emoticon
    2941 days ago
    Great blog as usual!!

    Thanks for being a great Spark Friend and Inspiration in 2012.

    Looking forward to see what 2013 brings us!!

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    `*♥☆ Spread the Spark!!!
    2941 days ago
    Looks like you've got a really good plan laid out; best of luck! emoticon

    Happy New Year!
    2941 days ago
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