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Victory over negative Thinking

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

I struggle so much with an anxiety disorder, that really seems to attract negative thinking about myself. I let myself wander into the "What if's" about everything. And I often come to conclusions that are way over the top, that cause me to worry when it isn't worth worrying about. I spend a lot of time, thinking I know what someone else is thinking of me. And it causes me to think the worst about myself. I spend a lot of time, thinking I will never be what I want to be, because I'm not worth it.

It is time for me to kick that thinking to the side. It is time to change the thinking to something more positive. It is time to learn to calm the anxiety's and see life for what it is, not my weird negative perceptions. The journey of losing weight isn't just about the exercise and eating for me, it is also a mental and emotional journey. It is about small victories every day and so I hope many of my upcoming blogs will be about my small victories!

Today's Victory - I woke up late, because I slept through my alarm. I started to wonder if I had time to get my exercise in before getting my son up for school. But I didn't want to miss out on my exercise, because I knew if I waited it probably wouldn't get done, because I was going to have a busy afternoon. I finally put my workout clothes on, but a bunch of little stupid things happened that kept slowing me down even more, until I just felt frustrated. I decided on a 30 minute Tae bo video that I have. After the first 3 minutes, I started having excuses come into my mind, like "you don't have time for this, or you are to tired today." Then I started feeling "Why do I keep starting challenges I never finish," and "Why am I even trying". I almost turned off the workout, because I had those same anxiety driven feelings that I always have. But then I found another voice. And it said "Don't quit on yourself", "You can do this", "Just take it one step at a time". And so I let that voice speak louder than the negative one. I clung onto it, and soon I found myself at the end of my 30 minutes. I would like to say I immediately felt better, but I found myself frustrated by what time it was, and wondered if I could keep my exercise going every day. But then I realized my victory in getting my workout in today. So I wanted to take a moment and celebrate that today I found the strength to exercise, to overcome negative thinking long enough to get my workout in.

I know I have many days ahead, and it may not be easy, but one day at a time, I will figure this out. I will declare victory! I don't want to give up on myself this time. So here is to many more victories ahead.
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    Great job! One day at a time!
    2835 days ago

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    2835 days ago
    ABSOLUTE VICTORY!!! Way to go!!!!!! One day at a time, and you gotta just SHUT that voice up, and get the positive one to be LOUDER! You did a great job and should be SO proud of yourself! I've offered before, but I'll offer again, I, too, suffer from panic attacks and anxiety, so feel free to SparkMail me if you wanna chat! (((HUGS)))
    2837 days ago
    emoticon Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I have really been letting the negative voice win way too much lately. Thanks for the reminder that it is my choice to listen to it. Keep pushing forward! emoticon
    2837 days ago
    Yayyy! You go GIRL! Negative thinking is one of my fantastic challenges as well.
    I'm 50 years old with grown children and young grandchildren.

    At the end of 2012, after 20 years of on again off again, I finally got out of a toxic relationship that had nothing at all to do with love and was very bad for me.

    I joined SparkPeople to get lose weight, get fit and focus on my positives.
    Your honest sharing of your victory really made me know that I am NOT the only person who struggles with negative self-talk. Thank you so much for sharing and making my day!!

    2837 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/16/2013 1:22:02 PM
    Good job! Negative thinking...I'm just realizing how much it effects weight loss. People give up before they even start. Keep celebrating those victories.
    2837 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    I think negative thought are how most people end up over weight. It really is fighting a war with our inner thoughts! You won a battle today and with many winning battles you will win the war! Positive thoughts encourage positive actions! Keep those positive thoughts and victories coming!!
    2837 days ago
    It's so easy to get overwhelmed, and being able to take one meal at a time, one workout at a time makes is so much more attainable. emoticon

    I believe we all have those negative feelings, and I 100% believe that staying positive, even if you fake it for awhile, helps. That positive energy is infectious. We geckos need you! emoticon

    2837 days ago
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