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Thursday, January 17, 2013

After some serious thought time... I guess it is time to figure out the root cause of this depression.
I am not interested in taking antidepressants, that will cloud the issue ... I need to really figure out the problem and change it. Getting up in the morning is getting harder and harder. Finding the desire to move and make me healthier is waning. I know I want to, and I know I can... I just cannot seem to DO IT.
Maybe it is just cabin fever times a thousand.
It seems silly when I put it into words, but my joys in life are few and short lived. I try to talk about them, but am shut down with everyone has it hard, then the comparison of lives begins. I do not have a horrible life, I should be content in it - after all that is what the Bible says...be content with what you have. I don't want things, I want to feel human again. To feel like a woman. Dare I put out there to feel cherished, and appreciated by the ones I live with.

I hope that tonight's meeting will spark a newness, a desire. The road I am sure will be slow going.... I just really really want to get on that damn road!
Something to look forward too.....
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    I hope you feel better emoticon Maybe you just need someone to talk to
    2930 days ago
    I hear you.

    I started something recently (probably a couple weeks before year end) that always sounded goofy to me… I’d received a journal as a gift, and I wasn’t sure what to do with it. I happened to join the Spark Coach program shortly after receiving that gift, and it suggested that I write down 3 things each day I was thankful for – a gratitude journal.
    And so, with no other real plans for my new cute journal, I decided to give it a go. And you know what? I really like it. It keeps me mindful of all the awesome things – both big and small – that I have in my life. Sometimes I’m thankful for Netflix (seriously, I wrote that once), but other times I’m thankful that I was able to celebrate my father’s 76th birthday with him.
    I don’t write in it every day, but I try to remember to at least every other day. I really do enjoy it. Perhaps you could try to do something similar. It truly has made me more aware of my blessings.

    Wishing you all the best~
    2931 days ago
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