Day 885: Learning to Love Myself
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Did you know that a girl's self-esteem peaks at about age 10? At around age 18-20 it goes back up, but it never hits the same height that it was at about age 10.
I want to be the exception.
I did not have high self-esteem as a child. I was always the shy, over-weight kid with few to no friends, who was an easy mark for the bullies looking to make themselves feel better by picking on the weak (that would be me).
I hated myself for not being the pretty, skinny girl that grade-school kids expect of girls. So I would eat, and get picked on, and eat some more. And it wasn't much better at home.
So, I grew up hating myself. And I have never stopped.
But, I want to stop hating myself. I want to learn to love myself. So, I'm wondering, is that something you can learn from a book? I've been looking on Amazon at the MANY books they have on how to learn to love yourself and I'm wondering if it really works? Has anybody really gained self-esteem by reading a book and doing all of the exercises? Really, I'm serious, I want to know. Is it a worthwhile investment, or a waste of money? Please let me know your experiences.
Thanks so much for your advice.