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Discouraged Diabetic

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Well, here it is, February 6. I have not stuck to me New Year's resolution of trying to be more healthy and get my diabetes under control. Last year at this time I was doing really good until I got a sinus infection that turned into bronchitis that turned into pneumonia. Then I found out I was severely anemic and almost needed a blood transfusion. No wonder I was so tired! That shot my whole year. Anyone who is a diabetic knows how much longer it takes to recuperate from even a common cold than the average person. I am probably 75-80 pounds overweight. Diabetes runs in my Dad's side of the family so I have grown up having my grandparents and all my aunts and uncles and my Dad living with diabetes, and not really keeping it under control. They were all over weight. Some have lost the weight, but most are now on insulin. I'm still on pills but my sugar keeps going up a little more over time. To boot, my husband is diabetic and doesn't control his eating at all. He is very overweight and will probably soon be on insulin. He contantly brings home candy, cookies, ice cream, chips, etc. even if I ask him not to. How can I be mad at him? I love those things to, and always end up eating them along with him. I think we're a bad influence on each other, instead of helping each other be stronger. To make matters worse, there are constantly donuts, bagels, cookies and candy set out at work. Trying to talk to the people who do this, and explaining my diabetes doesn't help; they only get resentful and angry, like its my problem and I just need to have will power. I know that's true! I guess all my excuses are just that, excuses. But I feel so alone in all this. I'm not strong enough to be the good role model for everyone else. I wish I had a role model to emulate. I know others on Spark People are supportive but you still end up feeling like a stranger. It took a lot of courage to post this, knowing people will read it and maybe judge me for being whiny and not taking responsibility. I feel overwhelmed and a little scared for the future. Maybe I need to take it one little baby step at a time, but where do I begin?
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    I am also a person with diabetes, so I do understand your struggles. Try not to overwhelm yourself with ALL the things that need to be done to get things under control - as NEWRUNNER2 said, try to focus on one small step and get control of that piece before trying to add another part of the process, otherwise it will feel so overwhelming and hopeless. And please keep sharing ; you are brave to do so, and it helps to talk it out with other folks who understand the struggle. emoticon emoticon
    2578 days ago
    First off, you're not alone!

    I agree with your baby step idea. Where would you like to begin? Is it the food? Getting more exercise? At-home eating? At-work eating? Maybe getting that step down for a couple weeks will give you the feeling of accomplishment that you need in order to tackle the next step...and then the next one.

    If you decide to commit to a particular step, feel free to share. Maybe you'll get lots of ideas and you can choose from there which you think will most help you.

    You can do this! emoticon
    2578 days ago
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