Life's many changes!
Saturday, April 21, 2007
I have been going through so many changes since I started Sparkpeople. And it has been a roller coaster ride. I keep thinking I should change my info on my sparkpage because that person no longer exist.
I have lost 35 lbs since January 7th, which is amazing in itself. I have never been able to loose weight on my own before. I always had to pay someone (weight watchers, Jenny Craig, etc) to help me loose weight. With sparkpeople and all the tools available, it has been easy. And with all the people I have met on line with all the encouragement and support, nothing can compare.
It was someone on sparkpeople who got me to face a demon that I have refused to face for over five years. That demon was the memories of being sexual abused has a child. Once I started talking about it, I couldn't shut up. It got me into seeing a therapist, who has helped me to overcome that demon. And the most important thing to come out of all this, is the team I started called "Victims of Child Sexual Abuse". This team has been such a motivation for me, I have to face some of my fears, just to be strong for the women on my team. Most of the time it would be easier to just not think about it. But I am constantly looking for articles to help educate myself and the team. It is a small team, right now I have 18 members and we have already started a new team because we want to keep the teams small. I told my therapist I don't know what I will do when I hit 20 members, because I don't want to turn anyone away. I told him I will probably become the team leader of another team. Even though I know of at least 3 other teams that can take them in and do just as good a job, if not better than myself. But there is nothing like hearing that I am a normal, patient and kind person and that they are thankful for the team.
I have started caring about how I look in public, taking the time to put on makeup. And now I can't stand to have baggy clothes on. And even though the thought of buying new clothes everytime I lose a couple of pant sizes, I will end up doing so. The clothes fit so much better. And surprising because of excerise, I weigh more now and I am in a whole size smaller than before.
Because of all the people and support on Sparkpeople I have an over all change to both my physical health and mental health. This is by far the most important website in the world to me. It has helped me in so many ways I cannot begin to cover them all, I have only touched the tip of the ice berg.
All I can say is Thank You for being here for myself and all the others you have helped.