Saturday, March 30, 2013
Hi, Sparkland. I've been a bit absent of late. Life has knocked the $hit out of me, once again. Recall my oldest brother died on April 10, 2012 at age 56. Six months later, on October 18, 2012, my father died. He was 83 and had a long, full life. I spent 5 nights with him in hospice saying my goodbyes. That was a gift. Now, five months later, my remaining brother, age 52, died on Monday March 25 of acute myelogenous leukemia. It came on fast. He was admitted to the hospital last Tuesday, where he'd gone because he felt very fatigued and weak. They did a CBC and suspected chronic myelogenous leukemia. They did a bone marrow biopsy and got the results on Monday. It was not chronic, it was acute. Monday afternoon we got the call that he'd taken a turn for the worst, had been moved to ICU, and had been intubated. He wasn't expected to make it. I left work, went home, pulled myself together, and threw some things in a bag. I drove to Houston heading straight for the hospital. My brother died 15 minutes before I got there.
My heart will stop aching eventually. Or so I'm told. But for now, I'm just hanging on. I'll still be logging in, hopefully have some fitness minutes to track, but it's going to take some time before I feel okay again. Thank goodness for kitties.
It's been a rough 11 months.