Life challenge vs Spark challenge
Friday, May 24, 2013
I set out to try the Spark Solution challenge, even though I would be travelling for work 4 days each week. And I did not intend to eat according to the food plan as I simply do not use food plans devised by others. For me, that constitutes a "diet". In any case, I was eating on the road and would not be cooking even once during the 2 week stint. Also, I intended to follow my own workout plan. But the travel and constantly changing schedule, added duties and very long drives did me in. My mood hit the pits. I was so tired I was running on coffee and irritability.
I am still struggling with resentment that I was asked (read: required) to participate in this plan. I wasn't the only one in my area. It was a meaningful plan as far as the topic and the team involved but the schedule was ridiculously packed with no reason for it. Somehow, the coordinator was able to do 36-48 hour stints during this. NOT sane! I was what one friend calls "over tired" - so tired I could not rest properly. The hours and the travel did me in. I ended up having a melt-down on the last long drive home yesterday evening. I was so upset that I had to get back up for half a day more today - even though it was the last day of it. Too tired, too hard to keep a smile on my face and be professional.
I thought joining the SS challenge would help me focus on real-life challenges while making healthy choices. Clearly, this was not a real-life challenge and I did not see the schedule before I started, nor did I anticipate the constant changes in the schedule as the 2 weeks unfolded. As usual, I stuck with my exercise plan! But food was NOT healthy and too much.
Yesterdays melt down brought me back to myself as far as food goes. It will take time to recover from the sleep deprivation - I have four days off in a row. That ought to help. But it will take longer to puzzle out how such a plan could be rolled out and required in such an impossible process. I have never been confronted with demands of this sort in this job. I will try to process it all and maybe blog about what I discover.
It turned out to be a much bigger challenge than I anticipated. Not at all what I thought I would be facing!