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Dream a little dream...or two

Thursday, May 30, 2013

I don't usually remember my dreams, but last night I had two that I was able to remember this morning. First, let me say...I tossed and turned all night last night...woke up once and all of the pillows were on the floor, the comforter was hanging over the edge of the bed, and poor little Spook was sleeping on the chair instead of snuggled up next to me like she usually does. I think I must have been especially active.

Anyhow, the first dream was...I woke up to an early morning dawn, a beautiful day. I jumped out of bed and did some exercises then got dressed and put on my running shoes. I then went outside and ran 5 miles. Came home feeling wonderful...and then I woke up.

In the second dream, I was at my doctor's office and she was squeezing all of my joints and I was crying...and then I woke up.

And you know which dream bothered me the most? Yep, the first one. I pondered that all morning at work and finally came to the conclusion that it upset me because I'm afraid it'll never happen again. I don't want to be 54 years old and not able to get out and enjoy life. Okay, okay...I know that may be a bit melodramatic. Just because I may never be able to run again doesn't mean that I can't still enjoy life. I know this, really I do. But it's still difficult to accept the possibilities...

Right now I'm trying my best not to dwell on what the future may hold. Waiting until I see the rheumatologist and see what we can do. I'm hoping that there will be meds that will help with the pain and the swelling...and I'm really hoping that we find them on the first go round...lol!

Sorry for being a tad pessimistic with this post...but thanks for listening.

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  • DEDICATED2HIM
    I know that feeling. For me, it wasn't running , it was roller blading. I had to give it up in the early days of my illness due to weakness from the steroids. Ihad a horrible fall and that made me realize my blading days were over. It's sad. I always say I know Jesus will meet me at the gates of heaven carrying roller blades. I don't know if he will or not, but somehow I think he will. Just making it through a day without horrific, screaming pain is a good day for me. Never mind the runnning. Somehow we have to redefine "good" for ourselves...and realize there are other things that are "good".....such as eating a meal of fruits and veggies and knowing you are being kind to your body. I still dream of running too one day....but that dream is getting dimmer and dimmer. Three years ago I was at a point where I was fit enough to run. But had just had two hip replacements and the risk of falling was a determent. Hang in there. Look for new things to make your day good....and realize that for all of us, RAD or not, at some point our running days are over.
    2739 days ago
  • KALIGIRL
    Sorry for the rough night - here's to you and your rheumatologist finding something that will keep you active and happy!
    2740 days ago
  • DEBANNE1124
    Hmmm a wild night you had. Poor spookers!

    Some medications can cause bad dreams.

    I don't know what joints are hurting you at this time but take your ahnds for instance. At a medical supply store friends of mine who are a couple afflicted with RA got this think it's like a rectangle small crock pot and a special low heat wax in it and it brings down inflammation in the hand joints. they swear by it.

    Another inexpensive suggestion Is i bought and am on "Tart Cherry Capsules" Do a google search on these. I buy mine from www.puritanspride.com. I ahve NO pain while taking 1 1000 capsule twice a day. (I swear by these.

    Only suggestions cuz i don't want you suffering.
    2741 days ago
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