Are my reasons superficial?
Wednesday, June 05, 2013
Today I began to wonder why I wanted to lose weight and all the reasons that I had often stop me dead in my track and I fall back into the same nasty routine of eating poorly. This journey is not easy. Everyday is a new struggle and a new temptation but why do I want to lose weight? Just to be healthy, going on a dream vacation, looking good in a swimming suit, all seem not to be enough. So why do I want this?! Any reason I come up with does not propel me forward long enough to keep the healthy habits.
So are my reason truly superficial because when I look in a magazine I see a body that is unattainable and wish just a little that I had her abs/butt. So why do I want to lose weight?! One thing that is hard to admit, at least publically, is that getting to healthy doesn’t change over night and all those terrible habits you have won’t go away in the blink of an eye, but you can work on it daily (got that, self). But coming up with the reasons why I want to be healthy is tough. Sounds weird, right? But when I think about my whys it is always something superficial. But the harder I struggle the more I realize I need to do this for me and not some superficial standard that I have placed in front of me (oh the conflicting emotions inside of me). That bar is too high and I need one that is at the perfect height for me. I want to be a healthier version of me not one that compares her self to others and dies inside (just a little) when I don’t meet the standards of someone else’s beauty. I need to do this regardless of how superficial my reasons are, so onward and upward to all my superficial, getting to healthy reason I may have. It is my journey after all and as I said, this journey is not easy but it may have a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. END RANT