Last week not so good.
Monday, June 10, 2013
I fell off the band wagon, but no biggy. I became so obsessed about eating right and working out, like to the point that that's all I was thinking about and reading about, that I overwhelmed myself. I have not over ate, binged, in so long! Like at least over a year! I ate everything I shouldn't and I made sure I gorged myself. I felt so depressed and had no energy. It hit me so fast fast and hard that I gave in big time. Looking back there was one single thing that caused all this....
But the good thing is I'm back and I only gained two pounds from it. I thought for sure I had gained 5 to 10 lbs! But no.
What triggered it was after a few days of eating right and drinking water I went from 149 lbs to 153 lbs! I was heart broken and felt like a huge failure! So I said screw it!
I knew I'd be back to eating healthy again, so I just let myself feel the pain.
I never should have gotten on that stupid scale! That's what did it for me. It's either a super high or a super low I get from the scale. I almost threw it out, but then I knew I would regret it. So I stopped weighing myself and just let my mind stop thinking about eating right for a week. I worked out one day last week cause I missed it. Yeah I actually missed working out :)
And...I actually missed eating right! Because I feel so good and fresh and proud of myself when I do.
So today I'm back, I'm not going to get on the scale for at least a week, but the good thing is I got on it today and I'm back down to 151 lbs! So from 149 lbs to 151 lbs I'm pretty happy about that small gain. Kind of amazed actually lol I ate pizza, burgers, bread, Salisbury steak, cake...etc. and with me being gluten intolerant these were all huge no-no's!
I'm not mad at myself. I look back over this last week with a compassion for the me that got down, if I step back and look at myself as someone else....she was upset, angry that all that hard work had gone for nothing( or so she thought,) angry that she had gotten on the scale too early in the game, it was too much for her...
I forgive myself for last week and I love myself no matter.