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Starting Over ... Again

Monday, July 01, 2013

I need to seriously some how regain my spark. I am sick and tired of the scale constantly going up. It's up 5.8 lbs in the past 6 weeks.

Today is my 13th anniversary. We went to Corpus Christi for a couple of days, then drove down to South Padre before we spent Saturday night in Harlingen. We drove back home yesterday. We used to always take our anniversary week off and just go some place but our jobs won't allow it. Donnie had to take 2 days of leave for the weekend for us to go away. It's always nice just to get a way even if it's for a couple of days.

My endoscopy went well. It didn't really find anything. There is some sort of thickening in my esophagus. The doctor threw 2 different "itis" words at me but it doesn't explain my swallowing problems. The office called me on Friday while I was in Corpus saying that he wants me to repeat the endoscopy in 6 months ... you have got to be kidding me!!! I'm pissed and hubby is furious!!! We had to pay the hospital $1,000 up front that the insurance didn't pay. This doesn't even include the surgeon's fees or all the biopsys he had done (about 20). My daughter actually paid the hospital since we didn't have the money. He put me one some medicine he wants me to on for 6 months before he redoes the scope and he wants to see me back in 3 months. Hubby's mad because I didn't get a 2nd opinion.

By my anniversary next year, I want to be getting close to my goal weight. I know I won't be there but I want to be one hot looking momma compared to what I am right now. I seriously need to get my spark back in order for that to happen.
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    emoticon I hope you had a nice weekend.

    I am happy that you are starting over...It means that you have not given up. As long as we can start over there is hope. emoticon
    2677 days ago
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    emoticon Sounds to me like you got your spark back!! Together we can do this!! Together we can not fail!!! emoticon emoticon
    2678 days ago
    Happy Anniversary! You can do this... start small and refuse to give up! Keep on keeping on!!!
    2678 days ago
    The spark is there, you just have to put one foot in front of the other and work it. I am sorry you are having so many health issues. Yes it is crazy expensive just crazy. You can do this. Remember sparks is 24 - 7-365 days. There is always someone to help you out. Let me know what I can do to help you get that spark going. I have lots of good recipes I can share. emoticon Cathe
    2678 days ago
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    2678 days ago
    getting your Spark is hard to do. I was struggling also, and I started by blogging each week with my results. That made me feel like I was accountable and that made a big difference to me! Good luck to you- you can do it!!
    2679 days ago
    Sounds like you had a wonderful trip. I like your plan to get started again. Every day is another chance to make a small change that will move you forward. Remember two steps forward to every step back and you will get there. Good luck.
    2679 days ago
    Happy Anniversary! I hope that you are able to heal yourself without having to spend so much money on expensive Dr.'s and tests. I know several who have healed themselves and quit all medication just by changing their diets to whole, organic foods and eliminating all processed ingredients. Best of luck to you!
    2679 days ago
    Sounds like you're going through a pretty horrendous time at the moment. I hope the treatment works. Your spark is there, just needs a bit of blowing on. Take a day at a time and make sure you are tracking and you should see the weight coming off again.
    2679 days ago
    Your spark is there it never left...let the spark shine again...I know you can do it....

    2679 days ago
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