This is my first blog post ever and I'm typing this because I have no one to talk to about my weight issue.
I've actually been trying to lose weight longer than I have been logging my food and exercise into sparkpeople, but it has been a struggle. I must have a horribly slow metabolism, because it seems like no matter how hard I try I just can't lose more than a few pounds. Then I get discouraged and give up.
I had surgery a few weeks ago, so I haven't been too active, but tomorrow when I have my checkup I will ask the doctor if it's ok to start going to the gym because I REALLY REALLY need that to help boost my metabolism.
Every day I'm ending the day with less calories than what I should be eating and I'm just not losing weight quickly like I use to =( I am deliberately going under my calorie limit because of the fact that I currently am not exercising. It's been 3 weeks since my surgery, and the swelling has gone down......so I'm pretty sure that it will ok to start going to the gym again. With that said, I still feel disappointed because you'd think that if a person is eating such a small amount of calories they would still be losing weight anyway, with or without exercise. I have always heard that dieting is 80% diet, 20% exercise.........maybe that's not true. I don't know.
I don't understand it. Last fall I lost about 10 pounds and I wasn't even trying! lol I was in school and spent most of the time sitting around studying and snacking on whatever I wanted, but I lost weight! Now I'm nearly starving myself and I can't lose more than a few pounds and then it's like the scale just gets stuck. UGH. Doesn't make any sense. So now I have become obsessed with losing weight, lol.
And then there's the "low fat vs. low carb approach". I'm still torn between the 2, but I guess I favor the low carb lifestyle. Grains are not good for everyone and I don't believe fat is bad for us if we are not consuming large amounts of grains. But conventional diet wisdom tells me to eat whole grains and avoid fat like it's the plague. When I eat this way I just don't feel good. I feel crappy and tired and sluggish. When I did the low carb/paleo diet a few summers ago I felt so different. I felt mentally clear.......energetic.....focu
sed.....and happy. I also lost 20 pounds.
Why do I always gain the weight back though? Because I can't eat like my family eats. They can eat whatever they want and stay thin. So they think that I can go out to eat and go out for ice cream and bake brownies and homemade cookies and indulge just like they do, but I can't. But I want to make them happy, so I do those things.....then the weight slowly creeps back on. =(
I usually don't feel sorry for myself and complain about things.......I never bug anyone about how sad I'm feeling or b*tch about my problems, but I'll admit that today I'm feeling extremely defeated and sorry for myself and had to get it out =(