6 months and still going!!

So obviously I haven't been blogging. Life has been very busy and I really haven't thought about sparkpeople all that much. I still read the weekly emails but even that sometimes takes me days to get to. Even though I haven't been on sparkpeople I have still been being active :D. I'm in the bush monday to Friday and I've been camping/hiking on half my weekends. When I first got up here I was gaining weight because I was drinking a lot and eating a lot of crap food. I didn't gain much, and I could feel the difference in my body, so I went back to healthier meals and working out when I have the energy. I don't have the energy every day. Actually most days I'm exhausted after work, but I do try.

Life is amazing now. It's been 6 months since AB and I started going to the gym regularly and I've lost 38-40 pounds, which works out to a sustained loss of 1.4 pounds a week. Considering I've probably taken a month and a half off all totaled, I am very very happy with that. It actually just occured to me today that I am only 9 pounds aware from what I thought would be my final goal weight. I weighed in at 159.6 this morning :D. My lowest weight in many many many years. I feel amazing in comparison to what I did. I know I still have a long way to go, but I'm actually willing to wear a bikini now, even if it doesn't look the greatest. My confidence is up, my self respect is up, my life is happier, and I'm starting to become the person I always wanted to be but was too afraid of failing.

I don't know what my final goal weight will be. Originally it was 150, but now it's 130-140. I'm really just playing it by ear to see how I look/feel when I get to those stages. It would be kind of amazing to be 130 pounds, but if that is unobtainable then I am more than happy to be wherever I am healthy and fit at. I love that it's still not about being skinny but about being fit. Being skinnier is definitely a bonus, but it's not the destination and I think that makes a huge difference in my outlook on this whole process this time around.