Back to Square One:(...what's love got to do with it?
Tuesday, July 09, 2013
What a difference a year makes! This time last year I was in the groove...exercising & tracking my food daily. I was also in the midst of my greatest weight loss success ever!!
By Sept. 2012 I had lost 65 lbs!! I went from a size 28 to a size 18 pant, from 3X to XL in shirts...I couldn't have been prouder of myself.
But then the dreaded plateau showed up, and it still hasn't gone away! As each week and month went by I was getting more discouraged. I kept exercising and eating healthy, but not at the same level of intensity. I was able to maintain my weight loss, but couldn't seem to lose any thing more. But then something miraculous happened....I met a man and we've fallen in love
. I say miraculous, because I had pretty much given up hope that it would ever happen! And as our relationship grew stronger, I spent less time exercising and eating healthy. In my mind, what did it matter? I had someone who loved me regardless. Plus, before, when I had "no life", it was easy to spend 60-90 minutes a night working out....I had nothing else to do.
So what's love go to do with it? First of all, I've regained about 15 lbs., and my clothes sizes are now changing, but in the the wrong direction!! So I am realizing that it's not enough that he loves me regardless of my size. What's really important is that I love myself enough to take better care of ME. I started SP with a goal in place...to live a healthier life. And that means regular exercise and making healthy food choices on a daily basis. And I want/need to attain my goals.
So it's back to square one for me. I know how to do it and I know that it works, I just need to find a balance in my life and get back to taking care of business. Loving myself can only make my relationships stronger, right?