I am down but not defeated!
Wednesday, August 07, 2013
Its been forever since I have actually written a blog. I have a lot of things going on right now. I am in the last stages of the divorce. Hopefully, only ONE more FINAL hearing to go. (I had no clue there could be so many "final" hearings.)
It has been a year since my mother passed away, and another birthday has come and gone without her. I don't have to tell many of you who have gone through the loss of a parent, how that feels.
I am still in the process of trying to rebuild my life. I must confess I have not been as successful to date as I was hoping I would be at this time. I have gained back around 12lbs of my total weight loss. I haven't given up... I am just struggling to get this addiction back in check. It has been a vicious cycle between me, stress, and eating. My time at the computer has also been restrained. I spend most of my days trying to keep up with the yard work, the house work, looking for a job, and going back n forth to court. (the expense of that alone is enough stress to make me scream).
I wish I could say that I see a end in sight. I am so upset over the weight gain.... it feels like a step backward. I am not surprised mind you.....I am just upset with myself. I know I am out of control, I just don't know how to get back to that place where I was before the summer. By the way, I am totally open to suggestions LOL.
I do miss my Spark time...and all the wonderful, supportive friends I acquired along the way. I hope to be back in full swing very soon. I ask for your continued prayers and support...and thank you sincerely from my heart for all the prayers that you have offered up on my behalf thus far in my journey.