SP Premium
5,500-6,999 SparkPoints 5,629

I am down but not defeated!

Wednesday, August 07, 2013

Its been forever since I have actually written a blog. I have a lot of things going on right now. I am in the last stages of the divorce. Hopefully, only ONE more FINAL hearing to go. (I had no clue there could be so many "final" hearings.)
It has been a year since my mother passed away, and another birthday has come and gone without her. I don't have to tell many of you who have gone through the loss of a parent, how that feels.
I am still in the process of trying to rebuild my life. I must confess I have not been as successful to date as I was hoping I would be at this time. I have gained back around 12lbs of my total weight loss. I haven't given up... I am just struggling to get this addiction back in check. It has been a vicious cycle between me, stress, and eating. My time at the computer has also been restrained. I spend most of my days trying to keep up with the yard work, the house work, looking for a job, and going back n forth to court. (the expense of that alone is enough stress to make me scream).
I wish I could say that I see a end in sight. I am so upset over the weight gain.... it feels like a step backward. I am not surprised mind you.....I am just upset with myself. I know I am out of control, I just don't know how to get back to that place where I was before the summer. By the way, I am totally open to suggestions LOL.
I do miss my Spark time...and all the wonderful, supportive friends I acquired along the way. I hope to be back in full swing very soon. I ask for your continued prayers and support...and thank you sincerely from my heart for all the prayers that you have offered up on my behalf thus far in my journey.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Glad to see that you are not defeated..
    2498 days ago
    Thank you everyone for your comments. I appreciate your support. I know God will see me through this.
    2664 days ago
    Oh Mellie, you've been through a lot. I understand your pain of losing your Mom, I lost mine 4 years ago and still miss her very much. So sorry to hear of all you are going through... praying that all gets better soon and this ordeal will be over quickly! Keeping you in prayer! emoticon Karen

    2664 days ago
    You're certainly in a rough patch, my friend, and there's an awful lot (emphasis on awful!) on your plate. But it will get better, and things will smooth out. You know that in your heart. That doesn't make RIGHT NOW a whole lot better, but at least you know that none of this is permanent.

    When I was getting sober, now 29 years ago, I was told that since we can't fix everything hurtful in our lives at once, we need to address them in the order they're killing us. One thing at a time, dear lady.
    2665 days ago
    Hi Mellie! It's so good to hear from you. With all that you have been through I think you've done great to not gain more than 12 pounds. Don't be too hard on yourself. You will get back "in control" soon. Still praying that all goes well for you and this ordeal will be over soon!

    emoticon emoticon
    2665 days ago
    You've been through a lot. Tomorrow is a new day. You can't change the past and there's no use feeling guilty over the weight gain. Just start over tomorrow. Especially rely on your Spark friends. They will help you to stay focused. Take one day at a time and don't obsess and pounce on the scale for about a week. Ronda emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2665 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8541578
    I just lost my mom in June and it sent me for a loop!! I miss her terribly and during her final illness and subsequent death I went off the rails. I gained back about 10 pounds and am having a terrible time getting back into my program. I finally decided that I want to be healthy for me, no one else, and I have to do what is best for me. I still have issues with binging, but I am taking an active approach to working on that problem. I joined a team called Back on Track and I kinda started at square one. I started with something simple I knew I could do...drinking water and got myself back to drinking at l east 8 glasses a day. Once I accomplished that I added another thing, exercising 10 minutes a day, more if I felt it, but at least to do 10 minutes of something. Start small and slwoly work yourself back up to where you were. Never give up!!!!
    2665 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13955558
    Hang in there. You are going thru some tough times. Things will get better. God bless ya. It's time like these that we are tempted most. Just try to keep your reserve. I sincerely hope things get better soon for you. Keep us posted. Judi
    2665 days ago
  • BEEJAY49
    Please don't be so hard on yourself. You have been through so much. Just take it one day at a time, you will be fine! Know that you are being prayed for! God Bless and Hugs!
    2665 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.