Realization

I just realized that I am so fixated on the number on the scale and I shouldn't be. This is what I believe has been holding me back. Every morning I get on the scale, if it goes just a bit I am upset, if it goes down I am happy. I just need to throw that scale away.

I think that I need to just try to make healthy choice when eating, get some cardio in at least 5 times a week, lift weights at least 3 times a week. I so be happy that I have been able to stay in the 160s. The weight will come off. I really need to practice and believe what I have been preaching to everyone.

I know that I am not at my goal weight but I am getting closer. I should be happy with what I have accomplished in the last few years.

I have stayed out of the 180s, 190s,200s this past year.
I have ran multiple 5ks - 30+.
I have ran two half marathons.
I have done two mud runs.
I can do regular push ups.

I just don't understand why I am so fixated with the stupid number on the scale.

I am healthier and fitter than what I used to be.