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Pandora's Box

Thursday, September 12, 2013

I wasn't prepared to run into him last night, but I did. While he doesn't (and never did) define who I am, our relationship was a learning experience.

There I was, looking for low-fat Stella Dora breakfast cookies on a random Wednesday night. I had just gotten out of work and decided to get a few items on the way home. One of the great benefits of working second shift is shopping when others are sleeping.

It was the second time I saw him there at that hour. I was mad. 'This is my turf,' I thought.

But there he was.

My entire body felt red, and I actually pictured myself throwing a bag of Double Stuff Oreos at him. But I didn't. The truth is I'm happier than I've ever been in my entire life. Things really are going well for me. I have a job that pays well, am financially rewarded for freelance writing, and have plenty of friends and family to support me on my journey towards a healthier lifestyle. 'So why do I feel red?' I thought.

Because it was a flashback.

We never truly forget those who have hurt us. They're like scars that heal over time, but they never completely disappear.

I turned my cart around. He didn't see me, and no cookies were harmed.

My entire body was shaking with anger as I drove home, though. Relationships that end badly are like a Pandora's box. You slowly learn to store the key away where you can't find it, but every once in a while someone opens it up for you. I took it as a reminder to focus on all of the good in my life.

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  • no profile photo CD14126107
    Ohhhh.. :(

    I'm glad you are slowly getting over it (and didn't harm those cookies either).

    2728 days ago
    The thing I remember most about the story of Pandora's box is that it contained hope even though all the evil stuff flew out around the world. So put your "red" out there while you hold on tight to the hope that your life will continue to bring you to the place you want to be.
    2734 days ago
    Thank you for your replies. I've always been a very passionate person.I don't think I could walk by the woman who bullied me from middle school until graduation day without feeling 'red' emoticon But like most people, I'm a work in progress and have a long way to go emoticon
    2734 days ago
  • KAT321123
    Emotional reactions are so real but, hopefully, will fade more over time. It may be a day from now or may be 20 years from now, but there will likely come a day that you can pass him in the store and not even really care. Glad you've found your happiness and are able to recognize it! =)
    2734 days ago
    Pandora's box is not a good place for those feelings. Working through them with a therapist, facing them, processing them and moving ahead will allow you to buy the cookies next time. Or maybe not. As both my therapist and yoga teacher say, "the issues are in the tissues." Your body recognized a threat, but not the time that has intervened. That will happen, that's why the therapy is good because you learn the tools to deal with those situations.
    Glad you are overall in such a much better place.
    2734 days ago
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