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It's been awhile!

Saturday, September 21, 2013

I haven't been on here in about a year. I just want to say if you're wondering if this Spark People experience, hCG and now Sensa works I'm living proof it does... me and a huge number of other people.

You just have to want to make it work, apply yourself, be PATIENT... stay focused on your goals and don't give up!

I shared this on here before but I'll say it again. Several years ago I weighed in at over 300 pounds. I refused to go to my doctor because I didn't want his "lose weight" lecture. I was wearing 40 plus waist pants and XX shirts (tight), I couldn't walk any distance at all without sweating up a storm and sucking all of the oxygen out of the air and I constantly had to catch my breath. I couldn't reach my shoes to tie them so I bought "slip ons" but then I had to get a long handled shoe horn to put the darned things on. I couldn't see my toes unless I leaned forward a bit, I had no room in my pocket for my wallet (40 inch waist pants), I had to move the steering wheel up to drive, I drank alcohol like a fish (wine, whiskey, vodka... whatever was available)... I actually started to hate myself and everyone around me. I became an absolutely obnoxious, self pitying intolerable idiot.

I realized I had to do something about it or die a fat, lonely, grumpy young man. I set out on a course to change my life and was willing to do almost anything to make it happen. The first thing I knew I had to do was lose weight. I've tried that before but was never successful but I knew I had to do something this time. So, I just started going it alone. I didn't really report my weight to anyone else until I was at 297 pounds. That's when I finally lost enough to go to my doctor. He wasn't happy... wasn't happy at all. He told me I had to lose weight if I wanted to see life beyond 60 yrs. old. I didn't tell him I lost weight before I came to see him. I still haven't told him that.

After that meeting with my doctor... Dr. Michael Balfe, Group Health... the best out there! I promised myself I was going to get back into some semblance of shape and stay there.

Along came Spark People... twice... along came hCG... along came Sensa... along came healthy living and a fun life again. Of them all Spark People taught me the most and reminded me of what I already knew. It doesn't happen overnight! It takes hard work, dedication, desire, will and above all support! Even if the support means a note or two from people you've never met but interact with here on Spark People.

I achieved my goal weight a year or so ago primarily because of everyone here on Spark People. The continued guidance, support and interaction... the resources. I did do the hCG thing to lose some tough pounds but once those were off I jumped back into the Spark People meal tracking/calorie counting routine and kept it off, continuing to lose until I achieved several of my goals.

My work took me away from the site for awhile and when I thought it was safe to return I was challenged with balancing work and Spark People again (along with the many other things going on in my life).

In January, 2013 I realized a REAL need to give up alcohol altogether. I was not all that satisfied with my work/family life so I kept drinking myself into a stupor which normally resulted in passing out on the couch on a daily basis. I woke up one morning and my wife candidly told I'd become nothing more than a drunk who's totally unreliable and quite frankly disgusting. I had no argument with that. I knew what I'd become I just hadn't heard it from anyone else yet. I decided I was done with the booze. She wanted to get me "help" but I told her I got to this point myself I'll fix it myself... and so here I am, done with the booze.

I'm only sharing that little nugget of info in my life because I can't take credit for doing it on my own. I never could have taken on the alcohol beast without the help of Spark People and my family. Even though I didn't visit this site for a long time I still applied to the cessation of a horrible, self destructive, disgusting habit all of those positive, challenging, innovative and productive resources and habits instilled in me by all of you here on Spark People! My alcohol days are in the past. That's a given.

My whole life has changed.

Today I enjoy my days and nights living each day with more energy than the last and looking forward to the next one. I will always be a part of this Spark People community! I've regained my life... hell, I've reclaimed my life and want everyone to know it's within reach if you haven't already reclaimed yours.

These days I still apply the benefits of the Spark People meal planner (even though I might not log on to plan my meals out). I eat slowly, chew my food, eat wholesome foods, pause a lot while eating and stop when I feel I've had enough, not when I feel "full".

I've reset my goal weight from 225 pounds to 223 pounds today. Only because I've been bouncing between 223 and 228 pounds for the past 6 months or so. I figured if I set my goal weight lower (223) then I'll strive to achieve at least 223 pounds which will most likely get me even lower (220 pounds or even less).

Don't get me wrong, I'm very comfortable at this weight. I just think I can go a bit farther. besides, it's all become a mental "game" for me now... but it's also become a win-win situation.

Just thought I'd share what's been happening over the last couple of years.

As usual, thanks for being here everyone!

Dennis
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  • no profile photo CD1772548
    It has been awhile. Congratulations on keeping at your journey to better health and for succeeding. Your story is an inspiration to me and many others.
    2377 days ago
  • WENDYWITKOSKI
    Way to go, Dennis!

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    2484 days ago
  • CAJUNTAM
    That's an awesome journey! Just remember that it isn't about where you are but instead about where you are going. You seemed to have embraced the idea of challenging yourself to become a better you! You should be very proud of yourself, I'm sure your family is!
    2484 days ago
  • BLINGQUEEN:O)
    Wow what a journey! You are living proof never to give up on yourself! Congratulations on so many levels. Sounds like you are living life on life's terms and not medicating through it in unhealthy ways. Thank you for posting this because many of us "Sparkies" disappear for awhile and then reappear! (myself included!) It is refreshing to read you came back even healthier! (When I disappear it usually is because I am hiding in my cave!) You give me hope! and Inspiration!
    ((((((BIG HUGS))))))) TO YOU!
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    2484 days ago
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