5. To not feel anxious about seeing someone I haven’t seen for a long time...
Sunday, October 06, 2013
Oooops forgot to post Day 5 reason yesterday...ah well. Better late than never...
...and wondering what my weight was the last time they saw me
I've been quite the yo-yo dieter in the past. I've never got to goal weight (whatever that is), but I have been 210lbs at my highest weight and 181lbs at my lowest. Because I'm tall, it does take quite a lot of weight loss before it becomes noticeable, but around 183-ish people do notice. I've been down there 3 or 4 times, and my friends and people around me are the type that notice and comment. My weight can fluctuate between those figures in the space of, hmmm, 3 months! Literally! I haven’t quite got up to 210lbs again (thankfully) but not far off. That means that I can never really remember what weight I was the last time I saw someone. It mortifies me that someone who would’ve commented on how great I look, could then see me just a short few months later and I've gained over 15lbs again. I always wonder if they're looking at me thinking 'how does she do that?' lol If only they knew! ha
As much as it does boost me when someone notices I've lost weight, part of me wishes they wouldn’t because I know how it's gone in the past. I always say 'this is the last time 'but who really knows?! I know that right this very minute I'm feeling comfortable about my progress, I'm feeling almost like it's too easy, that I'm in my groove and I'm getting into a routine, so I do hope THIS is the end of my yo-yo'ing. So no more having to worry about what I looked like before.
It's my 27th birthday in just under 6 weeks, and I wouldn’t have seen a lot of my friends in about 2 or 3 months (maybe even more; a lot of my friends are scattered around London and/or the England). I always do something for my birthday, something active (we went ziplining one year, all did a 5K Zombie Run last year; it's become a joke in my circle that I'm the one who never just wants to go for a meal haha). Anyway, this year I'm planning for us all to go on a Murder Mystery night, which will be so much fun. About 20 of us. So I have 6 weeks. I'm so on track right now so I know I'll be feeling great that day.
Happy Saturday everyone. I'm off to view a new flat (apartment)….whoooop!